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My Life Thus Far
2016-01-19 06:58:46 (UTC)

A Wave of Nausea

When my alarm went off this morning, I almost cried. I felt slightly better today than yesterday, but still not back down to the level of pain I'm accustomed to tolerating on a daily basis. As I was slumped over the sink trying to get my eyeliner right, I became overcome with a wave of nausea. When pain reaches that state, there isn't much tolerating happening. When will it end?

I made it to work (somehow). At first it was slow and I basically just stood around in agony. Then it started to pick up, and helping customers took my mind off most of my pain. Unless I needed to get into a low drawerbase. Ugh... but I made it.

After work, Snookums met me at Central Market so I could pick up some groceries. He came to do the heavy lifting. I got the ingredients needed to make another potato soup, and a loaf of banana bread. Then, we headed home so I could rest.

There just isn't much I can do to truly get comfortable. Snookums called my doctor's office (which surprisingly was open even though today's a holiday), because he's tired of seeing me suffer. He's so good to me. I go in tomorrow at 10am. I don't want to, but I accept that this isn't going away on it's own.

Today is Martin Luther King Jr Day. I posted a meme I saw on the internet. Basically a quote about honoring humanity and animals. Not surprising, that's kind of what everyone does on Facebook, especially in honor of someone great like Mr. King. Well, apparently it wasn't actually one of MLK's quotes, and a much more enlightened individual pointed it out to me. Which is fine. I don't have an issue being corrected or told I'm in the wrong. Although it did get me to thinking: this individual I hold in high regard and value what he posts, but he's always talking about "animal whites". I assume this is in reference to how white people use veganism for selfish reasons, but I don't fully understand what he means, and I don't understand what behaviors it is I'm supposed to be avoiding. Am I not being true to my black side if I say certain things? Or post something in particular? Do "animal whites" exploit the plight of animals to make themselves victims? I don't understand... seems like I'm always doing something wrong. Not being sensitive enough, not being black enough, not being cognizant of one thing or another. It's fucking frustrating. Mostly because I consider myself to be a relatively enlightened person. Yet, he always makes me feel like a disconnected idiot. Not because of anything he says, but because it seems like he's always posting something I didn't know, or hadn't thought about. I have so much growth to do...




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