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My Life Thus Far
2016-01-17 03:03:30 (UTC)

Well Enough To Power Through It

Well, my day went absolutely nothing like I'd planned it to. Honestly, I'm sad and disappointed. Not in myself, just the situation.

I had to go back in my mind and think about it, but after doing so, I realized that at Central Market last night I totally threw out my back picking up my super-heavy bag of produce. I think the bagger thought he was doing me a favor getting it all into one bag, not that this is at all his fault. It's just an unfortunate accident. But my back is messed up real good. By the time I got home last night it was starting to bother me. It kept waking me up last night. Every time I moved, I'd wake from the pain.

I didn't want to call out sick. It's not something I ever want to do. Not to mention I don't like missing out on pay (I don't get sick days). But the more I tried moving around, the more it became apparent that I wouldn't be able to move around or function properly. I called in to see if maybe my shift could be shortened or something, and was basically told I just needed to take care of myself. That's one thing I can honestly say about my managers, they've always been incredibly supportive, and never give me a hard time when I do need time off. I work tomorrow morning (until close, ugh), and I'm hoping with all my fingers and toes crossed that I'm better in the morning. At least well enough to power through it.

I took a long Epsom salt bath, I've done heat and ice, cannabis topical balm, and static back presses. I know there are other things I could do, but I've exhausted all my options here at home. I'll just smoke some herb and try to get some restorative sleep tonight. I'm going to need to call my doctor and figure something out. I can't keep living like this. One of my friends told me that he had cortisone shots injected into his herniated disks and it helped his pain a lot. There has to be something that can be done.

On a not my fucked up back note, I'm super excited that I've gotten a huge number of new vegan friends on Facebook! It's nice posting something vegan-related, and not having it totally ignored. On the other hand, my small personal bubble feels incredibly violated. Like I don't have a small, intimate friends list consisting only of people I know personally. Now I've got an influx of strangers, and all I know for sure is that we have one thing in common (for sure). Yet, I'm still excited! I'm tired of feeling like no one identifies with me. Ever.

I really want to go to the gym tomorrow, and I'm not feeling like it's going to happen. I don't know for sure if Monday will even happen, but I'm going to remain optimistic. Now to go rest...




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