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My Life Thus Far
2016-01-12 08:38:31 (UTC)

I Need It To Feel Normal

I really don't have a lot to write about, but it's customary that I write anyway. I'm surprised at how long I've kept up with the nightly writing. It's very much become a stabilizing force in my life. I need it to feel normal.

Work was super chill today. I facilitated a bra certification class for a couple of the girls that somehow fell through the cracks. The new bra cert stuff is much more streamlined than the old curriculum. The class portion takes half the time it used to take, and there's only one observation needed instead of 3. I almost felt like I was just sitting around waiting for them to finished tapping away at the ipads. I was in training hours, so sitting around was fine by me. It's nice having a stress free day once in awhile. A day where I don't have to obsess about how much I'm selling. Or not selling, because it was a super slow day today.

Physically I'm feeling better. Since I don't weigh myself I have no idea if I'm actually losing weight, but I'm feeling lighter, tighter, and less bloated than I have been feeling. It has everything to do with me eating better and getting exercise. Which is exactly why I needed to get back into it.

Lately I've been feeling very drawn to the idea of writing. Not just in my diary, but as a profession. I wonder if I'd love it less if I needed to do it for money? The problem is I'm inherently lazy. I don't know how to go about getting started, and I don't know what to write about. I also don't feel like leaving my comfort zone at the moment. At some point I'm going to have to either start living, or accept that this is what my life is...




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