Interrupted

My Life Thus Far
2015-12-21 09:43:34 (UTC)

It Doesn't Even Hurt

As challenging as yesterday felt, today was a breeze. I did my best, pep talking myself before my shift. I gave myself permission not to care about the outcome of the day. Whether I had a good day on screen, or not, I wasn't allowing it to get to me. I just needed to do what I needed to do to get through the day. And I did. And it wasn't a bad day. Customers were actually nice. I didn't get yelled at or treated poorly. I guess all the nasty people came in yesterday.

My body is exhausted. My feet are killing me (despite being used to long days of standing and running around), my back is aching, so is my neck. Two more days to go. Two short days, even. I work 12 hours over the next two days if I actually get off on time. Fingers crossed.

So, I ended up deleting Whisper today. It didn't feel like any great sacrifice. As much as I liked writing Whispers, I didn't like the responses, and I didn't like engaging in anonymous conversations with strangers totally unsolicited. I have a hard enough time managing Facebook friends. Speaking of which, one of them unfriended me because I posted an article about women liking tall men. He's a little man and sensitive about his height. Initially I engaged with him about it, trying better to understand. My conclusion was, he's the vegan wimp omnivores are talking about. When he told me he unfriended me because he was upset about being short, I really thought he was trolling me. But no, he was serious. I blocked him, and I unfriended his girlfriend too. I don't need some pussy ass bitch getting butt hurt over every little thing I post. It's for the best he left. I'm getting to the point where it doesn't even hurt my feelings anymore. I accept that I'm not white bread, vanilla, PC enough for a lot of people. I'm controversial, and I like it. I hope I make people thing. Sometimes I push them too far out of their comfort zone, but I'm always making people think.

I'm so tired, I can barely keep my eyes open. Wow. Thank goodness I get to sleep in a little tomorrow. Goodnight.




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