Interrupted

My Life Thus Far
2015-12-20 08:28:02 (UTC)

A Shit Ton of Negative

In the 15 years I've worked retail, I don't think I've had a day that wore me down quite as much as today did. I almost cried. Not because of anything anyone said. I just felt so overwhelmed and unhappy. Customers were rude and demanding, it was insanely busy, my coworkers weren't helping me (even when I asked), I'm just DONE with retail, this time of year, nasty ass people, everything. I want to be back on a beach in Hawaii - forever, not thinking about all the bullshit I put up with on a daily basis. It makes me sad knowing that will never happen. I'll probably be forced to work until I die (unless my husband gets his shit together).

Being back in the fitting room is almost like ground zero. We're having a giant bra promotion (they're all $35), so it was insanely busy. I had so many go backs, I was swimming in them. Hundreds of bras, panties, lingerie pieces, pajama sets, PINK stuff. I kept calling over the headset for someone to come help, but it never happened. An SLT member would come grab a handful, but it wouldn't even dent what I had back there. It was the only help I asked for. Managing 6 full fitting rooms for hours at a time, a line of people waiting. All I wanted was for someone to put all the shit back that they were sending people back with! I don't think that's asking much. Eventually the crowd died down enough that I got it all done myself, but it took me over two hours. And even then, still no one helped.

I wish I had some kind of positivity to write about, but I feel like today was just a shit ton of negative. I posted a whisper about how sad it is that some meat eaters are so mean to me, and how I didn't expect that to be the hardest part of being vegan. Instead of getting any kind of support, all I got was vicious attacks. Leave it to the even more anonymous platform of Whisper to make the internet that much more cruel and unbearable. I wish I could generate memes with the app without posting them for others to see. Because quite frankly, I've yet to have a positive experience. I think I'll see if I can find a good meme generating app. I don't need any added shit in my life, and I feel that's what Whisper does. It doesn't matter what topic I write about, I always end up with dozens of negative responses, and few constructive ones.

I did some more shopping at H&M tonight. I got Annie jeans, leggings, t-shirts, and slouchy sweaters. Her latest wardrobe. I got Kiki one of the same sweaters I got Annie, I hope she doesn't mind. It was cute and on sale for $10. I've gotten them all the clothes I'm going to. I'll be getting socks, Christmas Eve jammies, and books. That's it. I'm not going all out this year. Especially since Keenan doesn't believe in Santa anymore. I'm glad they know we have to work for all the stuff I buy them. It isn't delivered by a magical fat man in a red suit!

Day 3 of my last 5 day work stretch before the holidays are over happens tomorrow. I don't know how I'm going to make it through the next 3 days if they're anything like today. I honestly might cry from sheer frustration and exhaustion. I'm so very done. When did it get so hard?




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