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2015-10-20 20:15:27 (UTC)

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im not smary. im to dumb to be in college class. i can't do it/ i don't want to. becuase its hard. i lost hope in humanity. yeah right, dee said she never had good scores, i doubt that. she did better than me. seriously i made a 14! on the act. ut austin needs a 22 i can't i don't know how. how do i study this, i can't talk about me, theres nothing good to say. bothing. i tend to over think things, i should've gotten help maybe a therapist. seriusly i need help mentally, im starting to hate ms. franklybb, idk, i don't like her telling me im just a nmber, i want to be top ten, like the smart kids who just get accept4ed anywhere! seriuosly! what! im lik 104 i hope i don't go down!

its too stressfull! no wonder andres and antonio stop texting me. maybe they thought i was to dumb. but thats stupid of me thinking im going over there ust becuase of him, but no, i didn't want to tell him that was my dream school, becuase he would be asking me right now if i got accepted, i don't belive the whole "benifit of the doubt" on going, seriuosly, idk, maybe a big university isn't for me, maybe i should've just been a hard working i cant do it.;I dont no ones pitty, i don't i think thats why i stopped asking ms.franklinn for help becuase im tired of people pitting me!

I tend to zone out a lot this year, maybe thinking about the future, i never thought of it being this difficult, man.

I feel like im not ready to go to a univesity, but then again maybe the stupid sfa is right! i need remidel classses! seriously! i have 3.5 gpa, im ranked 104 out of 439 students! and you are saying i need remidael classes! seriuosly! i can't! im used to just having people giving me stuff
! things i should've worked for myself! i don't want to be pampered! i don't! i should be getting my licenses and paying inseruence but also doing scholarships! and helping mom, but no im here crying my eyes out becuase i need to take remidel clases.

Do i even have goals anymore???? what? do i? nope,not right now,

as a kid i remeber listening to the radio station to the hot show, how i wanted to become a radio broad castor, someone who local people knew and some one who laughed with me not at me. i imaged myself as a comiedan, but delt with insecurity issues, still do, but then again i think over my accomplishments, paying for colorguard, earning my leather men jacket, and stuff that was awesome... getting to travel to look at colleges, those were awedsome as well! i cried, and cried, thinking im useless, but in reality you just have to lookj closely at the amazing things, such as telling your crush you like them, and never seein them again, thank god, "andres" i think "antonio" is thinking that, i saw him pose with his girlfriend i hope, on kik, and snapchat, hurs, but him and i never clicked eithier. besides hes a complete nerd, really smart, computer science thats awesome. i tend to put commas anywhere its like i dont breath when i talk which is a lie becuase this year i feel like im never talking.

anyother goal is saving for basketball, even though i never showed but i didn't spend money on the 50 dllars shoes! i still have them i should sell them.





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