Interrupted

My Life Thus Far
2015-10-12 07:17:22 (UTC)

Into the Labyrinth

I'm feeling slightly bombarded by all the causes I should (and want to) care about in the world. None of them are new, but it would seem that they're just coming to the forefront of my consciousness. Veganism (which is the easiest for me, really), feminism (a new awakening), civil rights (something I've always cared about, but feel more heavily invested in), atheism (embracing my lack of religion and really owning how I feel about it), bucking the status quo as it exists today. No more celebrating holidays that are bogus, or completely bastardized from their original intent. You name it, I'm probably grappling with it. There's almost a sense of fatigue. Not because there's too many causes to care about, but because I don't know enough to make a solid stand for or against both sides of any respective argument. I hate not knowing. I hate not understanding. It's not a place I enjoy being. And the more I try to educate myself, the deeper I travel into the labyrinth. I have to accept that any activism I wish to engage in will take YEARS not days or months worth of work. I have a lot to learn. But I want to. My eyes are open.

I have definitely boiled my performance at work down to a game. It's all about doing the absolute best I can in the time I've got, with the customers that come in. My first and foremost goal is to always provide them the level of customer service I feel our brand evokes in the customer's mind. We're a high end retail environment, and they expect high end service. Well, most of them. I do my best to fill that bill, and when I go into it with that mentality, I do well. No more goofing off, or trying to get out of doing work. No more pushing it off on someone else. I'm doing the work. I'm earning every dollar I make, and it feels good to succeed. Today I averaged about $430/hr. Not too bad, since I'm only really expected to sell $265/hr. I have personal goals I'm always trying to reach. Today was $3,000 and I fell exactly $25 short, but it's okay. I came close!

I stopped at Target after work to pick up a few essentials and something quick for dinner. I got some meatless chicken strips in a smoky chipotle sauce and a frozen pouch of quinoa and vegetables. As I was leaving the frozen food section I saw in a fridge case that they now carry Kombucha! I got a root beer and an orange cream-tasting one. They're good! I think I'll go back tomorrow and get the other flavors I didn't try. They cost less than the ones I usually buy at Central Market and I like how fizzy these ones are.

I became friends with Raven-Symone's dad on Facebook tonight! I was reading an article about the stupid comments she made about black names, and there was a link to a post her dad made on his page. So, I went to read the post, and turns out he just has a regular page like everyone else. Not a like page, or a group. Just a normal account. So, I friend requested him, and he accepted! I'm feeling just a tiny bit star struck, only because I loved Raven-Symone in The Cosby show, and the girls watched her on That's So Raven. I don't usually admit it, but Kiki's middle name, Simone is after Raven-Symone, but only loosely. I didn't want it to seem like I named Kiki after a celebrity. I just liked the name (not the spelling, though). Anyhow, he made some good points in his post, and even went so far as to say he loved his daughter even though she "sometimes says some dumb shit". I thought it was honest, real, and exactly what I would say if one of my kids monumentally messed up. I think he's kind of a motivational speaker now. I like some of the posts he's made since we became friends. I might actually die if he ever likes something of mine. Though I highly doubt it. I can't be any more controversial than his daughter is at the moment, so there is that. My views just tend to not be the most popular. I don't know when I became okay with not fitting in, but I'm so glad it happened!




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