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2015-09-10 02:15:24 (UTC)

to be continued

Not having your voice heard can limit the way people perceive you.

the monster had me running to the restroom crying. "You're not good enough!" why are you still here? your stupid! you are worthless! you don't deserve to live!
still brings tears to my eyes till this day.

The voices inside my head have been mostly yelling at me instead of whisperpering. I have differnt voices in my head that are completely differnt. One that makes me cry non stop to the most simplest things, one that angers me, and another that is a soft whisper that tells me i am good enough. usually the one that makes me cry wins. its like a bully, what am i saying she is a bully. She's mean, very self-absorbed. the other voice that makes me angery when i see people do things that i can't do myself then theirs the whisper, that tells me to stop crying, that its going to be ok.

people reading this might think im completly crazy. talking to myself. i've been streesed, developed depression. ever since i was 12, i had a whisper that used to tell me i was useless. and another voice a concious that used to guide me, to do great things. to be happy. but as i got older i began to ignore the good persuaing guidence. aqnd let the new as i say the "monster" conciuos to take over, pushing the good to the side, almost making it vanish.

Theres reason why i stoped listening to my good thoughts. that was becuase i started to compare myself with other people. Others my age, looking at what they had, how talented they were, mostly having me say to myself, "how come i can't do what they do?" or "how come i didn't understand the question?" this usually had me over think what was really happening around me.




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