Interrupted

My Life Thus Far
2015-08-18 07:39:34 (UTC)

It's Keeping Me Sane

As usual, I procrastinated until I was super tired and not feeling much like writing. I swear, I need to break this cycle. As of yet, there hasn't been anything motivating enough to truly entice me to break this habit. Perhaps this is just how I want to go about writing. Half assed in the middle of the night, right before I go to bed. It's better than nothing, and apparently it's keeping me sane.

My period started today. Exciting, I know. I knew it was close, but didn't realize it was that close. I don't have super regular cycles, so I can't predict it down to the day. More like to the week. Or within a few days. But then something will happen to totally throw me off course drastically. Once month I was so late, Snookums was worried I might be pregnant. Not possible, but there's an infinitesimally small chance his aggressive vasectomy (section of vas deferens removed, not just cut and cauterized) could fail. Anyhow, my moods are greatly affected by my cycle. I look back at the times when I was feeling particularly emotional or sensitive, and now it all makes sense.

I'm torn between being grateful that I work so much, and being irritated that I work so much. I should just be grateful that I make good money and can contribute to supporting our family. Instead, I fantasize about not needing to work so I can do whatever the fuck I want. Particularly cuddling with Keenan (because he's still into cuddling), and doing lots of hiking. I'm not interested in being rich. Just comfortable enough that we can have our living essentials covered and enough to have some fun as well. Maybe I should start playing the lottery. You can't win if you don't play. It just seems like a monumental waste of money. I can't bring myself to do it.




Ad: