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My Life Thus Far
2015-08-10 06:29:32 (UTC)

The Most Heavy Sense of Dread

Today didn't go anything like I thought it would, which is a wonderful thing, because I woke up with such a sense of doom and gloom. The second I opened my eyes, the most heavy sense of dread descended upon me. I can't say it's because I don't like where I work. I do. I think it had more to do with the fact that I had to go to work at all. I so want to be on my own time. If I could find a way to make money doing the kinds of things I love to do life would be utterly perfect. Alas, there is little money to be made in my hobbies.

Today was Christine's last day in our store. It's kind of hard to believe, since she's only been in our store since December. But then again, I'm not surprised. I knew she wouldn't be here long right from the get go. She had such a far commute, and the hierarchy of VS is anything but static. Everyone is always in a state of flux. We were all supposed to chip in and get her a going away card, but when I went in today I found out that no one actually got around to it. I took it upon myself to remedy that. During my lunch I stopped by Things Remembered and got her a really nice pen engraved with her name. We don't ever seem to have any good pens in the store. The company only provides cheapy pens, so most of us buy our own. I figured it was a great, functional gift for her to remember us by. I also found the perfect card that said "You already have everything you need to succeed", it was just the right sentiment.

After work, a few of us went to Red Robin to celebrate Christine's time with us, and to send her off properly. That's when we gave her the pen and card. She loved it. She did get a little misty-eyed. I can't blame her. I would too. It's tough watching the good ones go... and I've seen so many of them go.

Two more days until my next days off! Seems like I'm always counting down. I love my free time away from the store. More and more I feel like the life I live outside of work doesn't mesh with the persona I embody at work. I'm an actress. I need to find a way to make the two sides of me reconcile, so that I can feel like I'm not constantly living a lie. How do I go about this?




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