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My Life Thus Far
2015-08-07 08:06:59 (UTC)

Inconsolable Despondency

For the most part, I had a really great day. Only one episode of sadness sullied my otherwise idyllic day of leisure. I'll get back to that a little later...

I slept in this morning. Glorious, uninterrupted sleep! My sleep schedule has gotten so off track. I'm staying up way, way later, but still getting up at the same time I'm forced to (work beckons, after all). Not that I got to bed any earlier last night, I just didn't have to set an alarm for this morning. It was utterly blissful. Tomorrow I'll have to get up earlier. We're going to Seattle.

After Snookums left for work, I was still kind of up in the air about what I wanted to do with my whole afternoon/evening alone. I decided to go with my original plan of heading up to Port Angeles to go to Country Aire. It's changed a bit since the last time I was there. Not really in a bad way, they moved stuff around and have a little less clothing and jewelry, which of course was what I was hopefully after. Oh well, it saved me some money! I ended up getting an India cross body bag, a couple lotions, and some bananas. Nothing crazy. I also stopped at Swain's too since I was in town. That ended up being a fortuitous decision, because I found a pair of hiking/rugged sandals I've been wanting for awhile on sale for $24.98! Usually they're 2-3 times that price! I also got a Washington bumper sticker I've been wanting to add to Fiona's collection. At this point, my day was going splendidly.

After my afternoon in PA, I was headed towards Port Townsend to pick up some Thai food at the little place I went to last week, and to watch the sunset at Fort Worden. On the way there, I witnessed a truck in front of me hit a deer who walked out into the highway. I saw the deer. I don't know how the truck's driver didn't. But, I watched the entire horrific thing play out. I watched the deer get hit. I watched it tumble through the air, slam into the guard rail, and convulse on the side of the road. It didn't die immediately. It suffered before it finally stopped moving. I'm sure it was an accident. Who would hit an animal intentionally? But the truck drive couldn't possibly have been paying attention. It was broad daylight. I was so upset, I needed to pull over to cry about it. Which made me feel weak and silly, which in turn made me cry even more. After about a half hour of inconsolable despondency, I was able to carry on my way.

I got our food first, since the restaurant closes at 9pm during the week, then I made my way out to my favorite spot on Fort Worden beach. You have to climb the stairs into the bunker, climb onto the bunker's top level, then go down a hill on the other side. By the time I got there, the sunset was pretty much just a blazing strip of fiery red light. But it made the clouds and the reflection on the water so beautiful. In that moment I was able to reconcile the loss of life I'd just witnessed. As I was walking back to my car, a young buck came out of the woods started walking along the path in front of me. I was reminded that even though the world lost a deer tonight, there are many more who will continue living their peaceful lives, hopefully very far away from highways. They won't have to experience what that poor deer did. I can let it go.

I'm excited about tomorrow. The friend I'm going to see is someone I've only talked to via Facebook, so I'm hoping we hit it off in real life. I'm also hoping Snookums isn't an asshole. Sometimes he can be when he doesn't think someone is "worthy" of my friendship. I hate that he thinks I'm better than some people. I don't even think I'm better than anyone, and yet he does. He's gotten better about it. But, he still falters now and again. I'm going to try to remain positive about it. I didn't already mention to him once that I demand he be on his best behavior!




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