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My Life Thus Far
2015-08-03 07:31:22 (UTC)

A Different Kind of Hard

I've been out of sorts all day... I miss my kids... I knew I would, but I always underestimate how hard it'll hit me. They left early this morning. Snookums woke me up around 9:30, so I could say goodbye. They were gone by 10.

In an effort to make me feel better, Snookums took me shopping. I don't need anything, but I do have a bit of a weakness for new clothes. Since I have to wear black for work, I don't really have much else. So, he took me to Old Navy to look at some day off/casual clothes. I found a couple pair of heavy linen cargo style pants, and two t-shirts. I love the pants, but I tried the t-shirts on after we got home, and I don't love them. They'll be going back. Probably for something black I can wear to work.

Snookums worked this afternoon/evening, so I was on my own. I decided to do one of my favorite things: go to Port Townsend. I went to my favorite book store, Phoenix Rising. It's called a book store, but its really more of a new age everything store. I got more of my favorite incense, two gemstone bracelets (Rose Quartz and Ruby Zoisite), and the companion book to The Book of Awakening; The Little Book of Awakening. It's tiny, and has an entry for each week (as opposed to each day). It's going to live in my purse, so I always have some inspiration on hand.

I got hungry, and decided to treat myself to dinner, but the idea of sitting by myself in a restaurant just sounded sad. Tucked away down an alley, I spotted a little Thai restaurant. The smell coming from the open door was intoxicating, and Thai is an easily veganized food genre. I ended up settling on cashew veggies (vegetables and cashews sautéed with a sweet rice vinegar sauce), and coconut fried rice (which was unlike any fried rice I've had before, and REALLY good). I haven't had any other Thai than Sabai Thai in Port Angeles. It's still my favorite, but this place was really good, too. I want to go again with Snookums.

I wanted to take my meal to Fort Worden to eat on the beach, but the wind was so wild, and the temperature had dropped too much for it to be an enjoyable experience for me. So, I settled for a little park in downtown Port Townsend, that happened to be hidden in plain sight. I had a little bit of beach, a lovely view, lots of sun, and protection from the wind. It was nice until the tide started coming in. But it was enough time to eat my dinner and relax a bit.

I came home to an empty house. That was tough. I fed and walked the dogs, but that still left me with an hour before Snookums came home from work, so I just took a long shower and crawled in bed. I love solitude. I enjoy being alone, not having to chit chat, or make conversation (which is hard for me at times), but not having my kids around is a different kind of hard. I know in a couple days I'll be totally over it, but until then, I'll keep feeling just a little off kilter and maybe a little more than just sad.




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