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My Life Thus Far
2015-07-18 07:51:58 (UTC)

A Normal Desire

Today I spent my day observing and certifying 4 of the girls I taught the bra certification class to on Wednesday. Talk about mentally taxing. It's way easier just doing it myself, than trying to coach and correct behaviors. I don't even have to think about what I'm doing. I just know what I'm doing. There's a great sense of pride in knowing you're good at what you do. Too bad it isn't something more noble. In the grand scheme of things, I don't find bra fitting to be very that important of a "calling".

Speaking of callings, something I have considering doing for a very long time popped back into my mind again. I have always wanted to be a surrogate. With the exception of last year's catastrophic miscarriage, I've always had a very easy time getting pregnant and successfully delivering healthy babies. I'm really good at it. I've always wanted to help a couple who otherwise couldn't have a baby, have one. I know adoption is always an option, but I don't think there's anything wrong with wanting your own biological child. Seeing yourself or your spouse when you look at your baby. It's a normal desire. Now that I'm healthy again, I mentioned the idea to Snookums and he said if it's something I'm serious about, then I can do it. This is the first time in the 8 or 9 years I've been mentioning it that he's actually given me any semblance of "permission". Of course I have a ton of research to do, but it's definitely something I'd like to explore.

When I got home from work tonight, Keenan was standing in the front yard alone, squirting his water gun into the grass. It's rare to ever see him alone. Him and Kiki are usually joined at the hip. I love that they're such great friends, as well as siblings. They might as well be twins at times! I didn't know it, but Snookums told Kiki that she could spend the night at the neighbor's house (they only have girls). Which left Keenan home alone with Annie, who was busy cleaning her bedroom. He's not used to figuring out how to entertain himself. So, since I've been wanting something sweet, anyway, we made cupcakes together. Adorable little fluff white vanilla cupcakes with mini chocolate chips inside and sprinkled on top of the whipped vanilla frosting. Gluten free and vegan, of course. I'm actually really impressed by how tasty they are, and how great the texture is. And Keenan had a great time hanging out with his mama alone. He's such an amazingly sweet little guy. I don't know how I got so lucky.

Even though working late isn't my favoritest thing, getting to sleep in, and go into work late is kind of awesome. I don't work until 2pm tomorrow. I'm so looking forward to not setting an alarm, waking up slowly, sipping on my morning smoothie while reading my guided meditation, and maybe even starting To Kill a Mockingbird. I need to get a move on, so I can get started on the new book! So many books in the world. So little time...




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