Interrupted

My Life Thus Far
2015-07-13 06:17:11 (UTC)

I Can't Make Him

I got off work at 3pm today, and I felt like a kid getting out of school early! It wasn't really a short day, I went in at 8:30am for an all-store meeting, then opened. Even though I had to get up early, it was nice getting work out of the way and having more of the day left. I used it well. The kids and I washed both my car and Snookums' car. After our hike earlier this week, Fiona (that's what I named my car) was absolutely filthy. And Snookums hasn't washed his car in so long, it was starting to grow moss in the crevices on the driver's side. Unacceptable! It was a lot of fun, though. The kids love washing cars!

Snookums appears to be doing slightly better. He still isn't 100%, but I could see marked improvement from the way he looked when I left this morning to when I got home this afternoon. He promised me he'll call the VA tomorrow and figure out his coverage, and what he needs to do to get his meds refilled. I may be an all-natural hippie, but I'm not stupid enough to discredit the need/necessity of certain medical interventions. He needs help when he starts having trouble breathing. Of course I'll keep watching him. I really want him to go to the doctor, but he's an adult. I can't make him.

I'm off tomorrow, but Tuesday we're having another DM visit. I'm supposed to be having my "interview" with Laura about the Ops and Staffing position. I'm not sure why, but I'm not feeling terribly optimistic about it. But then again, I'm not even sure I want it anymore. I was thinking today back to the days when I was part of the management team, and how miserable I was. I don't know if I was miserable because I was unhealthy and sick (and the added responsibility was too much), or if maybe I'm really not cut out to be in management after all. I'm an intelligent person, but for some reason I just couldn't force myself to catch on to all aspects of the job. Maybe it was because so much of my job was stuff I had zero talent or natural interest in. I think it will be different with this new position. It's more in line with my strengths. Right now, all I do is go to work, sell, leave. I don't have to worry about anything else and that's lovely. But I'm also plagued with the feelings that I'm not doing enough, and that I'm capable of more. I am leaving myself open to whatever happens. I will try to be gracious no matter what. Even if the outcome isn't what I want at that moment.




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