AlwaysLate

FragmentedMemories
2015-07-05 18:32:46 (UTC)

Workin' Girl.

Not that way anymore..

I've worked with people that I have really admired and people that I have really liked in the past, but I have come to really love many of my co-workers. AS MUCH as you can love a co-worker anyway. I don't want to go to deep into getting to know all of them any better because right now I am honestly happy with my job and my co-workers and I don't want anything to change my mind. I do highly value the truth, I highly dislike living in bullshit, but right now, at this time, I just don't want to find out something that would make it hard for me to go to work and look at them differently. I know everyone has their issues, their secrets, their problems. and I do find myself showing compassion towards people even if they have some reason that I probably "shouldn't" like them, but I usually just feel bad or wonder why. I don't know if that makes sense but it makes sense to me and this is my journal.

anyway, I have this one co-worker that I get all nervous/shy around. He is married and has kids and I wouldn't say that I am attracted to him, no, I just really admire him. I respect him in a way. When he looks at me, he looks into me, and I can feel it. I've always liked meeting people that do it, It's almost like I feel that I'm connecting with an honest soul, they are brave enough to look me in the eye and not turn away. Damn that sounds over the top cheesy and weird but it's true. He says little things to me here and there that are nice and uplifting. I think he can tell that there is something bothering me, and I hate that! Because when I am at work I try so hard to stay positive and happy and uplifting but some people can just see past it. But he shows me kindness, and I do appreciate it. I appreciate it from all my co-workers. I really love where I am at work right now, and am so grateful for how things have worked out for me. It's been some of the roughest few years of my life and when I think that I am not homeless, that I have good co-workers, I am beyond overwhelmed with happiness to the point that I want to cry.




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