nerd™

the anger games
2015-07-05 20:42:13 (UTC)

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i am so exhausted. i already booked 4 classes and still 3 to go but the problem is, i am terrified.

what if i cant control myself to study? what if i keep getting distracted like i always do?
i NEED to score high! i HAVE to get a good college!
i cant... Idk what to do.. Idk how.. i cant!

i cant control myself i know when i am bored there is no way in hell i will be able to focus. i know that mood. the feeling that i want to rip something apart and bein exhausted at the same time. being so angry for no apparent reason. cant even sit still.

Idk what to do. i really dont.

i am so useless. always have been.
sometimes i wonder why dont i have a talent? why aren't i good at anything?
i pretend i can draw but obviously Thats not true.
i pretend i am a smart nerd but of course its a lie.

why does everything have to be so hard?
why do i have to lie about simple things?
why am i like this?
i dont like it. i dont like me. i wish i was someone else.
i really do.




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