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My Life Thus Far
Focused on the Positive
My laptop's battery is at 10%. I could easily just plug in the charger, but instead I'm going to try to finish this entry quickly, so I can go to bed. It's after 1am, I open tomorrow, and I'm exhausted. It was a good day, so being exhausted isn't a negative. I'm truly focused on the positive.
I worked a weird 4 hour shift tonight. 3-7pm, which is out of the norm for me. I don't normally work short shifts. I can't remember the last time I worked on the 4th of July, either. But it is what it is. It was time and a half, anyway. The day was over before it even really started (or so it felt). Work has definitely taken the back burner when it comes to my emotional attention. I'm handling everything better in general, but the stress and anxiety from work was probably the one area I needed to do the most growing in. I'm getting there. It definitely helps that I've been having some really good days. My sales are where they should be, and I don't feel like my efforts are in vain. Sara put it really well today. We've finally trained our customers. They're starting to realize that they need to know the name of the person who helped them when they get to the register. It is way more about my feelings of affirmation and way less about the money. The money is a bonus, but at the end of the day, I need my numbers to reflect a job well done. They are, and a lot of the stress has dissolved because of that.
I took the kids to Old Mill Days in Port Gamble. I'm not a huge fireworks fan, or particularly partial to the 4th of July, but it's a fun little town, and a cute local fair. It's never too crowded, and they put on a really great fireworks show each year. A friend and old coworker of mine owns the fireworks company that puts on the production (Boomtown Fireworks). She always lets us into the fair admission-free. Any little bit helps! We ate roasted corn on the cob, and curly fries they cut from whole potatoes while you watch. It's always a good time. We didn't do any of the rides this year. The ticket prices went up, and it would have cost me $12 just for all of the kids to go on one crappy ride! This isn't the Washington State Fair we're talking about, here. Definitely not worth the money.
Keenan did a good job getting through this fireworks display as well. He was more fearful than last night, because the Port Gamble fireworks are directly overhead and drop paper shrapnel down on he crowd. It also looks like they're coming at you. He watched the whole show, but he made me cover his ears very tightly he curled up on my lap. It's still progress. Last year he was VERY upset about it. Almost in a panic. There were no tears tonight. My baby is growing up...
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