Interrupted

My Life Thus Far
2015-06-26 06:53:47 (UTC)

As Persistent As A River

More and more lately, I've been looking at myself and marveling at all of the self-improvement I've accomplished. I've been putting in the work, and it's most definitely paying off. I feel great, most of the time, and the rest of the time is just a natural part of life. No one feels fantastic all the time.

Thursday's have become my weekly mental health day. I have therapy, but I'm also making a concerted effort to get in more self-care time. Quiet mornings, and fun afternoon/evenings with the family. Usually at a park, or doing activities together.

This morning, I made myself and the kids' smoothies. They went into the living room to watch cartoons, and I went back to my bedroom. I curled up in bed with all of my pillows and Zephyr (my most social, friendly, loving kitty. I guess you could say he's my favorite now that Zeus is gone). I got in some serious reading and did all of the guided meditations for each day. Two week's worth! It was so fantastic. I even dozed off for a little bit and had a dream about one of the meditations. I can't remember much of it now, but I do remember how peaceful it was. Something about water, a river. Listening to it trickle, and noticing how no matter what obstacles stand in it's way, the river continues to flow. It will always find a way. It's a great metaphor for life. May I always be as persistent as a river.

Snookums went with me to my therapy session. He just sits in the car, but I really enjoy the days he comes with me. Even though he really isn't doing anything, it makes me feel like he supports me, and wants to be there for me. I know in his own way, that's totally true. There isn't much he can do when it comes to my mental health issues. I know he's mentioned feeling helpless in the past. I need to tell him how important it is to me and how supported he makes me feel. He deserves to hear it. Now that he's working, it isn't always going to happen, but when it does I feel even happier.

It was such a gorgeous day. We took the kids up to Fort Flagler again. I'm really starting to love that park. The beach specifically. It's a long, beautiful stretch of white sand (but with plenty of rocks to keep Keenan interested). It may sound crazy, but I even love the direction of the sun there, and the mountains off in the distance. As much as I relate to the warmth and eternal summer of the tropics, Washington during the summer is absolutely breathtaking. It makes the rest of the year worth it.

My check up with the hematologist is scheduled for tomorrow. I can't go because I work. I didn't realize until I got the automated confirmation phone call that it was this week. I need to call in the morning and reschedule. I hope it doesn't get pushed too far out. I'm really curious to see how my iron levels are looking. I've been vegan since my last blood draw, so the results will be 100% plant-based. I MUST call and reschedule. Don't let me forget!




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