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My Life Thus Far
2015-06-23 06:03:06 (UTC)

No Fear. Just Peace

My mood right now is calm, peaceful, and content. In the back of my mind, there's a little apprehension about tomorrow, but I'm not going to let myself obsess about it. I know I always make things out to be much more terrifying than they ever are. So, this time I'm letting whatever will be, be. No fear. Just peace.

I felt restless last night, so I didn't really get to bed any earlier than I would normally fall asleep. I slept soundly for about 5 hours, then woke up early. I'm not an early morning person. So, I eventually fell back to sleep and woke up mid morning. I love sleeping in. I would gladly sleep until noon if that were possible. I had a rather unsettling dream that's stuck with me, but I don't really want to talk about it. Usually the only dreams that bother me are the recurrent dreams about my mother/stepfather, but this one was sexual and not someone I actually would EVER want to have sex with. I'll leave it at that, and just hope I can put it out of my mind...

We took the kids to Battle Point park on Bainbridge today. It was a gorgeous day, but since we got kind of a late start, we really didn't have time to go out into the wilderness like I would have liked. And since there's a major forest fire raging through one of my favorite sections of the Olympic National Forest, we decided to stay out until it's under control. Battle Point is my favorite municipal/city park. Not that Bainbridge is all that much "city". The kids played at the playground (which is the nicest playground in the area, for sure), Snookums and I walked 3 miles. Around mile 2, my hip really started to bother me. I forget about my back issues on most days. Until it hinders me from doing what I love. Exercise makes me happy. I need it. Snookums said he's going to call my doctor and see what's going on with the MRI. I need treatment. Something.

Our family activity for the evening was making infused water. I cut up cucumber, strawberries, and limes. We also added blueberries, strawberries, raspberries, and mint leaves. I'm drinking one right now, and it's so good. The kids had fun helping me make them. They got to customize their waters just to their liking. Even Snookums helped. He's a little more apprehensive when it comes to "healthy" things, but I'm grateful that he's getting into it more. Healthy living used to be something I did on my own, and would share with the kids, but now it's definitely becoming more of a family effort. I want my husband to live a long life with me, and I hope my ways are slowly rubbing off on him.

I baked myself a birthday cake tonight! Gluten free and vegan devil's food with "milk" chocolate frosting. It turned out so good. Moist and yummy. I'm enjoying my vegan journey so much. The only thing I'm having a hard time reconciling, is the health side of vegan (I believe it's the healthiest way of life for me), and the animal activism side. I love animals, I don't want them hurt, and the idea of them being killed so people can eat them makes me a little sick. But I don't feel particularly inclined to protest about it. I guess I'm a half-assed vegan, but I have enough going on in my life. I can at least know that I'm not contributing to the problem, while I work on fixing my own life.




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