LustingforNightmares

tumbleweed
2015-06-20 19:09:49 (UTC)

In The Backseat


"In The Backseat" by Arcade Fire [guys I REALLY LIKE THIS SONG I REALLY, REALLY LIKE IT, it's so sad...]

I like the peace
In the backseat
I don't have to drive
I don't have to speak
I can watch the countryside
And I can fall asleep

My family tree's
Losing all it's leaves
Crashing towards the driver's seat
The lightning bolt made enough heat
To melt the street beneath your feet

Alice died
In the night
I've been learning to drive
My whole life
I've been learning


6:44 PM

I wonder if I'm tired because I didn't eat much. But I was tired yesterday, too, and I was ate more than usual.

I just weighed myself and that was annoying. I don't like weighing myself, it makes me feel gross. I'm 20 pounds heavier than I was last year, probably because I've been all depressed. I'm not fat, though, I'm okay.

Anyway, all I ate today was olives (THEY WERE FANCY OLIVES AND I FELT LIKE AN ITALIAN PRINCESS). My mom is making some frozen pizza, though, and it's delicious. I hate eating cheesy things, though, it always makes me feel gross. I guess, in general, I don't have a big thing for dairy. Cheese is delicious. I just don't like its effects.

Speaking of cheese, I read a diary with the username Cheese and she hasn't posted in awhile. I worry about people when they don't post??? I hope she's okay.

I found someone's diary today. Dunno if I mentioned that. I didn't mean to. I've actually been following them for a couple entries or so, and then they wrote something and I realized??? That it's??? A person I know???

So I think I'll stop reading it.

If it were me, I guess I wouldn't want someone to knowingly continue sifting through my deepest thoughts.

Unless you are a certain list of people. There are some people I wouldn't mind reading this. I wouldn't ask them because that's kind of weird, but if they were to stumble upon it, I'd be okay. Maybe even a little excited.

Wait??? My dad just said I saw Pat last month??? I swear I didn't see her.

Why can't I remember things???

I'm still worried about this summer. After that week-long class (I'm going to be so anxious and shaky when I start it), I won't have anything to do for like five weeks. WHY IS SUMMER SO SHORT.

My dad wore a sun costume today for his group that helps people buy solar panels. He apparently played viola at the farmer's market while wearing the costume, hahah. He might be on the news.

The songs I chose today, Kuroi Ledge and In The Backseat, both have weirdly personal lyrics... I really like it, it makes me sad. Sad in a sweet way.

Okay, food time. I'll post this later.

OH!!! Here's the gift I made for my dad for father's day: http://be-yondrepair.tumblr.com/post/122030780904

The picture is really bad and it looks better now that I've done some touch-ups and put it in a frame, but I can't post a new one because my phone's storage is full :( :( :(

Maybe those who feel god are the ones closest to meeting him.

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I was going to write more but I guess this is it for now.




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