Interrupted

My Life Thus Far
2015-06-20 07:38:00 (UTC)

Beneficial Behaviors

Finally! A bright spot in the dark cloud that has been my job! I found out today that the management hierarchy is changing (again). Our store has been bumped up to the $4-$6 million volume band, and because of that we get some new positions we don't currently have. One of them being an Operations and Staffing Supervisor. It was suggested to me that I should interview for this position (because it would be unethical to just give me the job, after all). I'm not going to lie. I'm excited about this. Sara gave me the job outline, and I can honestly say there isn't a single thing about the job that I don't feel good about, or haven't done already. I'm not saying that everything will be sunshine and roses, but I think I'd be happier in this position than I am now. No doubt. I hate to admit it, but I need to feel important. Who doesn't want that? Just when I think I'm ready to sever ties, I get sucked back in. VS is my purgatory. I'm not going to get my hopes up too much, because I don't think I'd handle the letdown well, but I am cautiously optimistic. I'll be keeping my fingers crossed.

All day today (even before getting the potentially good news), I kept marveling at how good I'm feeling. My energy levels are good. Probably the highest they've been in years. I don't think I'm anemic at all. Or very little, perhaps. My back and hip are still messed up, but the major pain has subsided a great deal. It's livable most days. I know part of that comes from getting used to the constant pain, but I also think the worst of the flare up is behind me. I've been stretching it out, doing yoga, and icing when needed. It's all helping. I truly believe that my vegan lifestyle is helping as well. A plant-based diet is anti-inflammatory. I'm also making great efforts to make sure I'm eating enough, getting beneficial fats, iron, protein, all of my macronutrients. I'm very pleased with how well I'm doing. I feel so great. I just want to keep this up.

I've completely fallen off the wagon when it comes to reading The Book of Awakening. It's been sitting on my nightstand, within arms reach, every single day, and yet I dismiss it. I'm so terrible about this; getting to a good place and because I'm feeling better, stop doing all of the beneficial behaviors that got me there. Usually writing goes first (but I seem to be doing better with that. I'm writing now, aren't I?) then reading (pleasure reading and personal growth materials), then physical behaviors (exercising, eating well, sleeping well, etc.) It's a familiar cycle, and I desperately need to break it. It occurred to me today that I've been in therapy for 8 months now. The longest continuous stretch in my entire life. I questioned if it was actually doing any good, but I can see now it has. Snookums said so. Hell, even my 7 year old son says I'm "better"! You can't argue with those kind of results. So, tomorrow morning I'm going to pick back up where I dropped off (reading), and try to get caught up. I'm so many months behind.




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