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My Life Thus Far
2015-06-19 06:54:22 (UTC)

The Perpetual Lead Blanket of Sadness

It's been a good day. I woke up feeling so good this morning. Like, I just knew good things were going to happen. Of course I had no way of knowing that for sure. I just felt like the perpetual lead blanket of sadness had been removed from my soul. For the better part of a year, it's felt like there was no shaking the pervasive sadness that has hung over my life. No matter how hard I try, it's always there. Well, I can honestly say that it's starting to feel less heavy and burdensome. I'm getting better. Even Snookums says so.

Summertime is a beautiful thing. Snookums and I slept in this morning, then spent an hour laying in bed having deep, meaningful conversation. I find that Snookums is easiest to talk to when he's relaxed and comfortable. He doesn't do serious conversations very well. He clams up on me. So, we chatted. Mostly about his interview today, money, the kids, just life stuff. Then, we got up and started our day. He had his interview, and I had therapy.

Today's session was very light. I didn't go into it with a bunch of baggage. We laughed a lot, and talked about positive things. She also gave me a business card of one of her other patients. She's attempting to launch a gluten free/vegan bakery in Bremerton, and my therapist thinks we might be a good fit for one another. My therapist is trying to help me make friends. I don't know if I'm in the market for friends, but there's also the potential for networking with someone actually doing what I'd ultimately like to do. I looked her bakery up on Facebook, and it's really in the infant stages. I'm not even sure what offerings there are. The page is less than two weeks old. I'll watch from afar and see what develops.

Snookums got the job! I'm so happy for him, and what this job will bring to our family. Starting pay is significantly less than he was making at the casino, but definitely more than he's making now (which is basically nothing, unless he gets a shift at VS). The manager likes him a lot and told him that he feels like Snookums has a lot of potential and should move up quickly if that's what he wants to do. I can't help but feel slightly responsible for him getting the job. I did tell him to apply, after all.

We spent a quiet evening at home tonight. No adventures. Just Bananagrams on the living room floor. Adventures are awesome, but sometimes you need a quiet night in.




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