Interrupted
My Life Thus Far
More Shit to the Pile
My entire day was spent at work, and (no surprise) I have little good to say about that. But I don't really feel like talking about it. Mostly because I'm not interested in dwelling on the negative right now. I'm tired, I have a headache, I'm cold. I don't need to add any more shit to the pile.
My period didn't come last week as expected. It was just a little spotting. But I know it's really on it's way soon, because I was starving all day. I don't usually feel hungry, but I did today. The headache is also part of my PMS gift. I just want it to be over. If there was a totally natural way to stop having periods, that didn't totally throw my hormones out of whack, I would seriously consider it. I'm sick of menstruation. I'm even more sick of dealing with the week before.
Snookums got an interview at Trader Joe's! I'm so excited for him! I'm not getting my hopes up, but I think Snookums will be a good fit for Trader Joe's. He's also go a little retail stock experience under his belt from working at VS the past few weeks. I really hope he gets the job. It would definitely help with my feelings of security and financial stability. I'm so tired of stressing about making sure everything is covered.
I know I don't usually talk about current events type stuff, but all of the talk about Rachel Dolezal has really gotten me thinking about how I identify myself. My mother is black, my father is white. I don't really think about race on a daily basis, but when I do, I'm usually confused about it. My mind and my body don't really agree with one another. If I had to choose which culture I identify with more, it would be the white side. I live in a predominately white area, with mostly white friends. I'm usually the only person of color around (most of the time). But white society sees me as black. But then sometimes black society sees me as less than black, or not quite black enough. Really, I just don't feel like I fit in. It's something I've struggled with my entire life. I think the biggest issue I have with Rachel's situation is that she's lied to so many people, and taken money for scholarships and jobs that should have gone to people who are actually of color. Yet, on the opposite side of the coin, so what if she wants to be black? Black people have passed for white in the past, probably still. It's an intriguing story. I'm interested in seeing where it goes.
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