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My Life Thus Far
2015-05-15 05:51:26 (UTC)

Woe Is Me

Just when it seemed like my life was heading in a much more positive direction. Like, I had my shit together and things were looking up. I'm now facing yet another health issue. I'm not entirely sure quite what it is yet, but it's something. Because every time I go to the doctor, it's something. I wish I had the luxury of being a hypochondriac. I'm the opposite. I assume nothing is wrong, even when all the signs are there that something is. I'll have to research this just for my own use. I don't really know anyone who tries to deny health issues as much as I do. I've got to get better about this.

So, I was told Degenerative Disk Disease, caused by a herniated disk, a slipped disk, a bulging disk, or possibly a combination of any of these options causing the DDD. I failed the reflex reaction testing in my right knee and ankle, my hip mobility is diminished, and I have muscle weakness, and foot drop. It's a little scary how a nagging backache has progressed to something potentially serious. There's a possibility of lasting nerve damage, but I'm not jumping to that conclusion just yet. I'm waiting for the doctor to get my x-rays back and see what he says after that. So, tonight I have no resolution to the pain. Snookums has me propped up in bed with an ice pack on my lower back, but it's doing no good. The only relief I get is from cannabis. All shame and negative feelings I once had about it have melted away. It's the most natural way to manage my chronic pain. Pain that doesn't appear to have an immediate end.

I don't have much of a desire to write about a random topic tonight. I really feel like I need a minute to process the fact that I have yet another health battle to fight. I don't feel ready for it. So, positive thoughts and good vibes my way. Everyone is fighting a hard battle, but I seem to be sent to battle much more often than the people in my life. Woe is me...




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