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My Life Thus Far
2015-05-14 06:00:33 (UTC)

Writing As Therapy

As much as I hate going to doctor's appointments, I'm glad I'm going tomorrow. My hip is really bothering me today. Like everyday. I know I've been complaining about it a lot lately. I guess I'm just tired of tolerating it in silence. I have a pretty high pain tolerance but over time it's getting to be too much. I'm hoping he doesn't just give me muscle relaxers, though. I don't want drugs. I have pain management controlled at night (and muscle relaxers aren't usually great for daytime use), it's daily functioning that's the issue. I've been slacking on my gym time and hiking shorter distances than I would like. I need more exercise in my life.

I'm at a loss for writing topics tonight... In the past when this happens, I stop writing for awhile. I know I've mentioned this before. When life is going well, I seem to be less inclined to write. Mainly because I view writing as therapy, and if I'm doing well why would I need therapy? But managing depression and my other mental issues isn't something that can ever really be put on the back burner. I need to always keep doing the work. On the nights I don't have much life stuff to work through, I think I need to pick a topic (no matter how random), and write a little essay on that. I don't think the subject matter of the writing is as important to the mind as the act of writing it.

I guess random topic of the night tonight will be a hobby I've been entertaining: jewelry making. When I go to Phoenix Rising, the first thing I see when I walk inside is an impressive display of gemstones, crystals, and interesting bobbles. Some of them are even already polished into beads. I want to buy some of those glittery pretties and make myself some jewelry! I'm thinking of twisting silver or copper wire around the stone and creating a cool pendant. It would be unique and something no one else would have. Maybe if I can make them look good, I can make them as gifts for friends. Just and idea. I love looking at different websites for crystal jewelry, and handmade items, and it's always so expensive. Then again, I'm not entirely sure if the expense of the finished product is in part due to the cost of raw supplies. Anyhow, it's something I want to look into.

I took a few hits of my new Juju Joint a few minutes ago, and it's definitely kicking in. It tasted different from my last one. I asked for the same strain, but this time I got pure cannabis oil instead of the other version that's cut with propylene glycol. Smoking it feels much smoother than the version with the chemical. The high feels a little different, but I'm wondering if that's maybe just variations even amongst the same strain. I still feel like I'm getting very sleepy, but there's a loopiness I don't recall with the other. And my eyes are dry. I suppose that's a good sigh that I need to close them. So, I guess I should go do that...




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