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My heart in a knot
2015-05-10 17:36:36 (UTC)

tweetin' teens

So my family has gotten back from their trip and I spent a frustrating weekend working, I did however put in my final resignation letter in today and my last day is June 14th.


I don't know much about what happened on the trip besides that my sister said it was "fun", but she has been keeping conversations with me short and I don't think she said what she wanted to say. I did however spend the weekend keeping up on what was going on through my teenage cousin and his girlfriend (who also went) on twitter.


For the record my cousin is 17 turning 18 and his girlfriend I believe just turned 17. They are both on twitter and I only found their pages this weekend because I wanted to know how the trip was going. I have to say honestly that the things his girlfriend says are very sad and negative, I am wondering how he ended up with a girl like her and I feel a little sorry for him. This girl was quite vicious in the things she tweeted about the trip and my family. Apparently she was bored the whole time with the "old people" I guess my parents and my aunt and uncle. Not only that but she continued to tweet about how she wasn't having any fun, how bad she wanted to go home and couldn't stand everyone.


Now I know I can't take twitter serious and from the looks of her older tweets she is a very negative person no matter what she is doing. In fact after reading her tweets I wanted to say she is highly neurotic and has a borderline personality, she is manipulative as well. When I first met her she did have a very low affect but I just thought that was how her face is, but she has a constant look of sadness and boredom on her face. Now don't get me wrong, I am not judging just based off this small amount of information and interactions but to me these don't seem to be typical teenage drama issues, I think there are issues much deeper, however only time will tell since my cousin is about to graduate and she still has another year.


I can't lie though, reading her tweets kind of made me mad because I felt she didn't appreciate the fact that my family took her along and that she got to see and experience something new, I may have taken the trip and been bored too, but I would of appreciated it for what it was. It makes me wish I could of taken her place instead, I would of loved to have gotten some shots even if the trip was boring.

So speaking of work, I wrote a very lovely resignation letter to my boss, I think she will appreciate it, especially since I gave the notice in advance longer than the two week requirement. I hope they find someone to fill my space because that place really needs it, they seem to have a hard time retaining people.


One guy suggested I should at least find another job before I quit, and other people looked perplexed that I was quiting without having another job first. But it's difficult to explain my perpetual lack of motivation when it comes to searching for a job when I already have a job. For me not having a job or source of income is going to motivate me to look for a job everyday that I'm sitting around and doing nothing then it will if I have a job to go to. And it's not just looking for a job that I become motivated in, I notice when I don't have a job I tend to seek out more adventure, of course I need money no matter what.


Today was the last day I saw NYC, I regret not getting to know her, despite all the habits she had that I didn't like, I really liked her core personality, plus she just has energy and charisma that I think anyone would like to be around. She was incredible loud and really put her entire life out there. She will be missed, but I feel optimistic that I will meet new people who will fascinate me, and this time I won't live with regret, I'll just get to know them and not miss any connections... or I'll try.

My fatigue seems to only be getting worst, I just can't understand the cause of it but it seems to be amplified when I go to work so it makes me wonder if it's a psychological and environmental complex as well as my general lack of activity. I will need to figure this out, and hopefully it's not something serious.

The count down may as well start today for my summer classes which start on the 19th. I have already ordered my books and hopefully they will arrive on time. I actually just remembered I need to make an appointment with my advisor for my graduation application.. I guess I'll go do that now while I'm thinking about it.




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