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My Life Thus Far
2015-05-07 05:19:27 (UTC)

I Shouldn't Stifle My Happy

Is it silly that I have a hard time thinking of things to write about when my life isn't falling apart around me? When life is kicking my ass, it's easy to think of a dozen things I need to remove from my head and work out. Or even just vent about. But when life is good, I almost feel guilty talking about how good things are. Like, people will be irritated with me if all I have to say are positive things. And yet, being a more positive person is exactly what I want to be! I know it's all in my head. Sure hyper-positive people can get on some people's nerves, but in general, people want to be around happy people. I shouldn't stifle my happy for the sake of a few downers who can't be happy for me (or themselves).

So yeah, I'm doing pretty fuckin' okay today. Two days in a row. Alert the media! Or not. It's not that big of a deal...

I didn't have the best day at work (sales-wise). It was just too slow to sell $300/hr. I'm really pleased at my ability to let it go, and not feel totally overwhelmed by my "failure". I'm pleased with my ability to finally realize that it isn't failure on my part because the store as a whole has a slow day. I think part of this is getting comfortable with the way the incentive works, and knowing that I can have 5 or 6 really awful days in a month, and still be fine (because this has happened). Also, we're a pilot store for a different sales incentive. I don't like all of the details, but it's easier for more associates to achieve. Which means I don't have to stress really at all. But I will, because it's what I do.

I'm on day 3 of my bentonite clay masks. Once a week is what's recommended, but every time I do it, my skin feels and looks better! The directions say to use it more often for problem skin, so until I'm totally blemish free again, I'm considering my skin to be a problem. But seriously, my texture has improved dramatically. I can't get over how soft it feels. I'm thinking tomorrow instead of applying it to my whole face, I'll just apply it to my blemishes. I don't want to cause some kind of reaction. If it's at all possible, my skin will find a way.




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