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My Life Thus Far
2015-04-21 09:21:59 (UTC)

Cards Against Humanity and Moscato

I'm not even sure how I'm able to write this, but I am. Although, I can feel myself slipping away (soooo sleepy). I had a really great day, and I want to get it down. Because so often I find it easy to share my challenging, sad days, but good days get much less press. If I even write at all. This is something I want to work on this time around. Consistency, whether good days or bad.

This morning Gen and I drove up to North Shore to explore, and look around. She took me to Turtle Beach (but we didn't get to see any turtles). It started torrentially raining as soon as we got there, but I was able to see a surfer riding a wave, and the water was such a mesmerizing shade of blue. Hawaii and such a plethora of beautiful things to look at. I wish I had more time, but on the other hand I'm really missing Snookums, the kids, my life in general. Minus work. I could stand having another week off from work, if I didn't need the money.

This afternoon, we went to a fantastic little hole in the wall café called The Beet Box. They specialize in organic, natural, vegan, and gluten free options. I can't begin to tell you how refreshing it was to look at an extensive menu an see so many options tailored for me. Why can't more places get on board with the planted based diet idea. And gluten free. I'm convinced gluten isn't good for anyone. I ordered The Healthy Food plate. It was super simple, but fresh and delicious. Sautéed vegetables, brown rice, black beans, avocado, and walnuts of all things. So delicious, it was stupid! As I was eating, I marveled at how bright and invigorating the flavors were. Almost like the longer I'm vegan the more vibrant my taste buds become. Like, I'm tasting every flavor for the first time. I love it. Food never used to be a spiritual experience before, but now I take my time eating and really savor all the flavors. I'm not missing meat or dairy at all. Sometimes I think about it, but never in a way that feels like I'm missing it. More like, I'm wondering why I didn't try this again sooner.

Tonight, I sent Gen and Sam on a date night. They so rarely get to do it, and I don't mind at all. The boys were so great. Calm, quiet, easy down for bed. Jasper wasn't crazy about the idea of going to bed, so I sat with him in the rocking chair until he was just about to doze off. I'm not going to lie, cuddling with a baby. His little head tucked under my chin, his soft, steady breath. It felt enchanting. I really want another baby. So much it almost consumes my being at times. Even though rationally I know that just isn't in the cards for me. That ship has sailed. I need to just be thankful for the amazing 3 kids I have. They completely my life, and I need to be 100% grateful for that. Which I am.

After the boys went to bed, I sat down at the dining room table to eat my dinner (my favorite Amy's beans, tomato, avocado, and my Daiya pepperjack shreds). As I was sitting there, I really started to miss home and think about all the things I'm missing out on. I want my family. Just as I was about to wallow in that self-pity, Gen and Sam came home. Sam popped open a bottle of Moscato and broke out Cards Against Humanity. I've never played this game before, but it's a blast! Between the alcohol and the hilarious answers, I almost peed myself. So much fun! The only way it could have been better would be if Snookums was here. Cards Against Humanity and Moscato will be my new go-to party game, ice breaker!

This will have to be all for today. I'm so exhausted, but totally in a good way. Lots going on today. I hope tomorrow is more of the same!




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