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My Life Thus Far
2015-04-18 07:55:01 (UTC)

The Safe Route

I'm so tired. I know part of it is the time difference. It's 1am at home, and my body knows it. It's probably partially the heat. It's like a heavy blanket. I love it, but it does take it out of you a bit.

I wish I could say today was full of excitement, but it wasn't. Which isn't a terrible thing. But part of me is really feeling like I let myself down. This was my chance to strike out on my own, and do something I've never done before. Instead, I freaked out and took the safe route. What happened to the tough girl I used to be? Now I'm the poster child for anxiety disorder. Fun.

So today Gen and I went to a cute little natural foods store, then Costco, came home and hung out until the boys came home from school, played outside with them (well, supervised), hung out some more. Like I said, nothing exciting. And while this is good too. I need a break from the constant hustle and bustle that is my life, I still feel like I could be doing more. My expectations for myself are clearly set too high. I will be making an effort this week to go out and do some of the things I want to do. I want to go shopping for the kids, I want to spend some time at the beach (which I love, but Gen doesn't), I want to see the sights and do something other than hang out all day. That's too safe.

I'm going to bed now, so tomorrow I can get up bright and early to hike Diamond Head. I'm excited. It isn't a particularly strenuous hike (I really wanted to do something epic of course), but it's still on my list of things to do. Afterwards, I'm not sure what's going on. Gen has something going on. We shall see...




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