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My Life Thus Far
Needs vs. Wants
It's a little after 11pm, and I feel exhausted like it's much later. I didn't sleep as well as I usually do last night. A combination of vivid dreams and no cannabis (I'm trying not to feel like a pothead by smoking every night). I plan on getting very high tonight. It's a celebration. The start of my vacation!
My heart and mind were just not in it at work today. It didn't help that it was painfully slow. It couldn't have been a more agonizing 4 hours. But I'm grateful it was only 4 hours. I don't generally get such short shifts. Even though I'm still feeling apprehensive about going on this trip alone, I'm not at all upset about time off from work. These next 10 days are much needed.
After work, I tried to do some more shopping for my trip, but I'm just not finding what I'm looking for. I guess I'll be doing some shopping when I get there. It's not like I really need anything. Needs vs. Wants, it's a struggle. I want some flowy maxi dresses I can wear on the beach or to dinner, but Washington this time of year isn't really maxi dress central. I managed to find one. It's something. Snookums did all of my laundry, so I can pack tomorrow. I'll make a note of anything I absolutely need to buy.
I got to spend some quality time with Snookums tonight. I'm going to miss him. He's being extremely trusting and wonderful about letting me go on this trip. Most men who have experienced infidelity wouldn't be so accommodating of their wife taking an unchaperoned trip to paradise. I don't intend to do anything to violate that trust. It's really about me getting connected with myself, and catching up with a couple old friends. Nothing more.
The plan for the rest of the evening is to eat a vegan brownie and take a few hits off my Juju joint (cannabis vaporizer). No shame in my game. Goodnight.
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