Interrupted

My Life Thus Far
2015-04-11 05:49:42 (UTC)

I'm Worth the Effort

Yesterday is in the past. I'm leaving it there. Usually, if I have a day like I had yesterday, it will linger with me for several days, or longer. Like, I have a giant rain cloud hanging over my head. That needs to stop, and I will make today the day I implement the change. I had a good day. I'm allowed to be happy, even when it's hard. I'm worth the effort.

I slept really well last night. Probably from all the sadness and tears from yesterday. I woke up this morning feeling fresh, ready to get going. Today was the photo shoot for my friend's beauty school portfolio/assignment. Last week was just the practice session. I honestly wasn't expecting it to turn out as well as it did. Kelsey did a great job, and it was a fun experience. Annie came with me, and even got her hair cut (7 inches of old damaged hair gone). Her student stylist did a good job.

Being my friend's model had an interesting affect on my self-image/self-esteem/how I see myself (all of those things). I really consider myself to be a very average person. Average looks, intelligence, just totally run of the mill. Hearing all of the other student's tell me how beautiful I am. Having the instructors shower me with compliments. It all felt really good. Several people even suggested Kelsey use me for her big final assignment. Snookums is always telling me how pretty I am, but he's supposed to feel that way about me. I hate to admit that it's important to me to feel attractive, but it is. I'm human. I want to feel like I'm special. I got a lot of compliments on Facebook too. I know I complained about saying yes to this, and I really didn't want to do it, but of course I'm glad I did it, and I'll do it again if I get asked. I won't let the experience turn me into a narcissist, of course.

I'm very proud of my body. Annie and I walked to and from the salon just like I did last time (only we took a more direct route, since I know where it is now). Instead of super sore feet and tired muscles, I'm feeling just fine. All it took was one tough day of walking and now I'm capable of hoofing it around Seattle like a local! Annie complained a little about the walk uphill, and of course it was raining on our walk back to the ferry. Otherwise it was a fun, uneventful day.

I work at 11am tomorrow, but I think I want to get up earlier and go to the gym before. I'm loving the changes I'm feeling in my body. I'm loving being vegan. I'm loving how light and clean I feel, my energy levels are through the roof, and I'm sleeping better. I'm also coping with the stressors of life so much better. I want to keep this going. I think I'll head off to bed so I can make a.m. gym time happen.




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