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My Life Thus Far
2015-03-29 06:27:33 (UTC)

Uneventful is Okay

Nothing extraordinary to share about today. It was a good day for the most part. I slept well last night, had a great day at work, and got to spend some time with the family this evening. At times I wish I had fun or interesting things to share, but there's also part of me that's totally fine with having run of the mill days. Uneventful is okay.

I didn't medicate last night. Even though I don't feel like there's wrong with it (it is legal in my state, and even if it wasn't, I feel it should be legal everywhere). I fear the negative stigma associated with smoking cannabis. It exists. I'm not what you would consider a pot head, but I do feel like it helps me cope with the stressors of life, and I sleep better. I enjoy how I feel when I smoke. It's not to the point where I NEED to do it. I just want to. And so what if I develop a habit. Although that isn't usually how I work. I don't become addicted. Even if I want to. I had a boyfriend in high school that was very dependent on it. I think that's where the negative aspect comes in for me. He couldn't function without it, and I really felt like it was a third entity in our relationship. I don't want Snookums to feel like I choose weed over him (he doesn't smoke). I'm seriously overthinking this, I know...

I'm getting caught up on The Book of Awakening. I'm less than a month behind now. I'm actually not looking forward to getting caught up, because that means I only get to read one lesson per day (instead of several). The good side of it, though is that I can really focus on the meditations. Right now, I'm doing the meditations, but not putting as much time into it as I could. I need to work on sustained meditation for 20-30 minutes a day. I'm already benefiting from the limited meditation I'm doing. There's so much opportunity to expand my practice. I'm so excited to be healing, and growing. Life is good!




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