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My Life Thus Far
2015-03-26 08:42:46 (UTC)

Grown and Gone

I waited too late to write, and now I'm tired. This entry will be short.

After our fun evening in Seattle, Snookums and I slept in this morning. It was blissful. I hate closing, but then again, I like that I get to sleep in. I only close one evening a week. So, sleeping in is a rare luxury... and I get to do it again tomorrow! After getting up, we went to lunch and then I had an appointment with my hematologist. All of my levels look amazing! For the first time in my adult life, all of my blood work came back normal. I'm in remission right now. I go back in June for a check up. I'm so excited for a break from doctors. You have no idea how taxing it is spending so much time at appointments and having one procedure after another. I still need to see my gynecologist about the uterine ablation, but honestly I'm still going back and forth with myself over whether I want to go through with it, or not. Right now the answer is "not". I still want another baby. I feel dumb about it, but I do.

I got to spend the evening hanging out with the kids at home. Spending time with them makes me miss the days when I only worked a handful of hours a week, and had more time at home with the kids. I have accepted that this is may place in life right now (working a lot to make a living). It does me no good looking back at the past, longing for it to return. It's gone. Snookums promises that once he finishes school and has a better job, I'll have more time to do the things I love. I appreciate that, and I feel fortunate that he has a drive to do better for us. Really, I just want us to be comfortable. We are now too, which is why I work. I fear that one day I'm going to look up and my kids will be grown and gone.

I need to head off to bed. I can feel a headache coming on...




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