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My Life Thus Far
2015-03-23 06:29:19 (UTC)

Spiritual Warriors

I'm seriously having a love/hate relationship with commissioned sales. I've worked for Victoria's Secret for 9 years (yes, if you've read any of my past entries, I'm still there), and I always used to say to myself "if we worked on commission, I'd make so much money". Well, commissioned sales have arrived, and I do make a lot of money. It also changes the dynamic of the entire store and how the associates interact with one another. On the days when there's only a few of us, no problem. Days like yesterday, and today just stress me out. There's too many of us, and everyone is trying to make their sales goals. Since I'm bra specialist, I'm in charge of the fitting rooms, and I swear all I do all day is clean up after customers and the associates who simply leave shit for me to do. I'm so over it! I think I needed to bitch about that before I can move on... Did I mention I hate cleaning up after other people? HATE it! End of May/early June we'll finally be getting a new store. I'll be so happy for more room! Then we won't be on top of each other. I still managed to have a good day, even if for a little while my temper got the better of me. Still working on it...

Snookums doesn't think I'm getting sick. He thinks it's allergies. He gave me one of his allergy pills, and I think it's helped a little. Normally, I would combat allergies with local raw honey, but I'm vegan now, so I don't know how to go about it naturally (but also vegan). Must do research... I'm looking forward to a good night's sleep. Restorative sleep. Aside from my broken face (itchy eyes, sneezing, stuffy sinuses), I feel good. I'm not feeling nearly as anxious or depressed as I have been. Work stress has lessened, too. Even if I did just get done complaining about it. Really, it could be so much worse. I'm grateful.

Today's entry in The Book of Awakening was another one I really connected with. It touched on how people who have gone through very tough times in life are Spiritual Warriors. The pain and hurt opens the heart to feel and understand things in a way that people who haven't been hurt so deeply can't quite understand. I totally relate to this on so many levels. I had a every tough childhood (see my early entries), and at times adult life has been a challenge as well. But, I feel like my early pain has opened me up to feel things in a way that I wouldn't be able to appreciate otherwise. I would rather hurt than feel nothing at all. I don't need the pity of others, because I see my upbringing as a gift now. There isn't much I can't overcome. Whenever someone hears my story and feels sorry me, I like to remind them that without it, I wouldn't be the woman that I am today. I am full of gratitude for making it this far in life, and having all the blessings I do.




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