jollyjess

thebrokenone
2015-01-25 04:20:00 (UTC)

If you think you know me? You probably don't...

The broken one...

"There's something wrong with me" - These are the words that are uttered in my head almost daily...

Do you ever wake in the middle of the night with an intense suffocating feeling that you just can't go on living anymore? Sometimes i've woken with this feeling of pain inside that just seems too much to handle. It only lasts for a few minutes but in those minutes it feels like hours. I feel as if I will surely die from just the feeling alone. I've had them so much that I know that when these come on that they will pass; I whisper those words to myself ; "This too will pass" just as everything else does. I've had them for as long as i can remember, sometimes it's not even in the middle of the night. They make me worry but I know that I am always bigger than the moment.

Hi my name is Jess.
If you knew me you might know me as: happy, easy going, confident and maybe a little crazy :-P But no one really knows what goes on behind those closed doors... This blog is an outlet for me as I don't want to burden those close to me with my pains (it's enough that I put up with it). Plus writing has always helped me reflect and feel better.

Life is a beautiful struggle xox





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