Marlon Brazilian

Somewhere in Brazil
2015-01-18 01:24:18 (UTC)

SATURDAY NIGHT AT HOME.

I feel so pathetic for being home on a Saturday night and being 18 years old. This is the only night I can go out since I dont have to work tomorrow but I can't seem to ahve friends to go out with. I really hope this situation won't last too long.

I desactivated my facebook account last night. I actually had been considering doing that since last year. Facebook was getting on my nerves, I was addicted to that fucking stupid thing. I'll probably be back on it in a few weeks though.

I just read something that made me reflect ''YOU'VE GOT WHAT YOU ALWAYS WANTED SO WHY THE HELL ARE YOU STILL COMPLANING, YOU'RE SO PATHETIC'', maybe I changed something but Im pretty sure it was something like that. That made me reflect because I really think that I've got what I always wanted. I moved out of south and I'm working, I'm independent, I'm studying, I'm looking forward to a new job, I'm making new friends etc. I remember I used to feel so damn bad in 2012, it was like my worst year. In school I didn't have anyone to be with during the fucking break, I never fit in, that was not my place. I struggled to make friends (and when I finally made friends, I moved and left them behind lol). Anyway, I rememeber I would feel so freaking bad and sad when I was coming back from school on the bus, I was so tired of that routine. Now I have a new routine, I live in a big city (not so big actually), and everything is still new to me. Plus, I haven't been living here even for one year and I've already conquered a lot. Thats one of the reasons why I think I must stop feeling down and sad and depressed.
I know we can't do anything to stop from feeling like that but I'll do my best to try.

I have to plan my future and keep in mind that what I'm going through is temporary. BE STRONG MARLON (I'm starting to be too dramatic, my life isnt even that bad).




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