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2014-11-11 11:26:13 (UTC)

Wow...wake up call

Monday was not good :(
Started out fine.i was ok,had gotten over what i had to,was happy enough again.
But Master and i had emailed a few times,and somehow,He had mistaken me and got upset with me again :(
He said He was tired of feeling like He had to keep explaining Himself to me.i don't know where that came from,as i hadn't asked Him to explain anything to me :(
So i must admit,i took offense to His email and sent a rather abrupt one back :(
i know i shouldn't have,and i'm really sorry i did,but i had tried to explain *myself* around 4 times by that point.
So anyway,i heard no more till just before bedtime,when i received a quick goodnight h****** cunt.So i replied with "Goodnight Master".
Then another email came through very quickly,so i think it was drafted,waiting to send :(
i made the mistake of reading it before i went to bed :(
It said quite a few things...that my Master,who i love so much,didn't want a slave who was upset and miserable all the time :(
He said He had decided we should take a break :( That i should think about what i want and what i want to be :(
The words blurred in front of me.i remembered my last Dom saying the same to me,and i *did* go away and think.And a month later,we split up.
i was so upset!
i sent an email back saying "As You wish Master.Sorry...goodnight",and i went to bed and cried myself to sleep :(

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Tuesday morning
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i kept waking through the night,and was up early Tuesday.i emailed Master again,in a final attempt to try to explain myself.i said how i didn't know how it had come to that point,and i didn't!
i know i *have* been up and down quite a lot lately,and it has got on Master's nerves :(
But i also know i'm not the only one who gets down :(
Anyway,i emailed Him,and pi.i had to put him in the picture.After all,i didn't know if this would affect *us* in any way aswell.
pi was worried :(
we waited for a response.Master had said He would email me details of the *break* :(
So pi and i waited for either that,or a reply to my last email.
When an email finally came through,i dreaded reading it!
As i read,i realised how down Master had been aswell lately :(
He admitted He probably was harsh on me.He said some really lovely things :)
There were more tears! Lol
But also so much relief! i knew if He had sent me away,i would have felt like it was over anyway :( i would have found it very difficult to go back again :(
Master ended the email with "Breaks over...now get back to work,and focus on being My happy,content,and unbelievably horny kitten...ok"?

And a *kiss* :)))

i have never been so relieved!
i emailed back saying thank You for not sending me away,then i emailed pi with the good news :)
he was equally relieved.Lol.
Master and i emailed each other all morning till i went to work :)
i went in the car,and just as i called at the shop,an email came through...

"Make yourself cum for Me...fast".

i replied with a smile,as i pulled up near work,saying i was sat in the car and had only just seen the message.

i began writing this entry,then a few lines in,another email came through...

"Where ever you are...just do it"!

i wet up instantly!Lol...and replied..."Yes Master...right now".
And i did.i slid my hand inside the open zip of my trousers,in the side of my knickers,and fingered myself to orgasm in less than 5 minutes.
Wow...i can't tell you how much i needed that!And in so many ways!
It wasn't all about the orgasm.It was the feeling of control i realised i had missed so much over the last 5 weeks.i have been left pretty much to my own devices,and self pleasure was the last thing on my mind.i was missing my Master more than i knew,up until right there in the car,in that one order,and my complete obedience in carrying out that instruction brought me back to where i belonged at last...in my Master's control.

And to think,He came that close to pushing me away still makes me want to cry,but with relief that He didn't now :)

And we might be meeting today!!! :)))
After 5 very long weeks apart...and 1 day!

i am trying not to get too excited but it's not working ;)




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