Phillip Wilson

Amazingly, I survived my Life
2011-09-25 00:00:03 (UTC)

1994 REVIEW (PART THREE)

28 February-8 March, Louisville, KY (continues)

(1st) Well! Well! Well! So this is March 1994! It doesn't seem so different from March 1993, or March 1992, or March 1991, . . . ; except for the fact that March found me in, of all places, Louisville, KY. Five or 6 years ago I happened to run across the Third Month, but, there being 'not enough room in this town for the two of us!,' I yielded (actually I returned to a Road Trip). I wonder: will Louisville tolerate both of us all 31 days of the month?
March faces two Opponents: the aging, feeble, but experienced Winter, and the just-out-of-training Spring. Will the experience of Winter be sufficient enough to Outproduce the State-of-the-Art training of Spring? All I know is the First definitely has the stamp of experience on it: it is a cold, wet Tuesday, Snow stationed nearby, and ready at the signal to launch an Invasion.
Winter is bound and determined to show that Persipcacity comes from Long Service, not the Classroom! It is right! although the business of the Classroom has had to change reality in order to sell its service.
Given the chores and meetings scheduled for me this week, Work would have been in the way! And if I am still entitled to the thirty-seven dollars 'draw' from the Communal Back-up Chest of Cash, it won't be such a drain on my account. However, next week is available and open! So, Work, please count me in!

(acerca 12:31 P.M.) Sue Smith, the financial aid advisor with the External Degree Program, called me this morning. She told me that soon I will receive material from the Financial Aid Office of the university concerning monetary assistance for the Fall semester, which begins in August. I am to follow through with my job by doing Paperwork. And I don't mind a bit, if it means being able o do my Senior Project without 'outside' interference.
I may actually get my B.A. in December! If so, I hope to begin Graduate School next Winter; so I guess I should begin making plans now! (an examination is required for entrance; and then I must decide which schools to 'hit' on. And then there's the old fiscal situation to iron out. But I may actually be a graduate student in less than a year!).
It only cost 24 cents to send the Step 12 to Dr. McKenzie. I also typed a semi-hateful letter to the Independent Study Division about the refund I supposed to have received weeks ago! You know, I returned that Physics text to the Book Store the first of last December; and all my attempts to get the refund (the Buy-Back policy pays one half of what one paid for the book initially) have been futile. Maybe all the addresses I have had of late has confused Jackie Jones, the Book Store agent and liaison with the Independent Study Division. But a three-month delay is inexcusable!
While we on the subject, is there some reason I haven't received any graded lessons in the past week? I am up to Lesson 15 on the Philosophy course; the professor or the Independent Study Office or somebody has only made it up to Lesson 6. I don't think I should submit anymore lessons until I find out the outcome of five or six more assignments. Besides, the requested envelopes and cover sheets haven't reached me yet
So this is, indeed, a busy week! It would have been difficult to 'do it all' if long ours had to be given over to the Amusement Business!
The National Geographic Society is now up-to-date on my subscription: I received the January and February issues this morning (last week the March came on in - or was it yesterday?).

(acerca 4:37 P.M.) March has already gotten mean! Hopefully It will peter out before too long!
You know what they say: Comes in like a Lion, goes out like a Lamb. Maybe that will come to pass.

(2nd, A little past 12:15 A.M.) This is the closest I have ever been to getting "Act Without Words" on tape! Even though it's a long shot, I am already 'blocking' and visualizing the choreography in my head. And the process is keeping me from sleep (along with the roaches walking all over me!).
March 2, 1994. is a little over 15 minutes old; I hope to establish legal residence in Kentucky by transferring to its Driver's Licensing, later today (actually my Alabama license expires the 15th of this month; I have no intention of becoming a citizen of Kentucky! It just happens I am in the Blue Grass State when Renewal Time comes.).
Wednesday, Louisville, KY. Updating my driver's license was one of the 'chores' I had to do; and this Business Week is a good time to get it done. If for no other reason than it will be of help in cashing and/or paying by checks.
Winter is slowly losing influence with March: it is a warmish cool Early Morning. It's a question now of how hard Winter will try to bring March back into the Fold.

(acerca 7:55 A.M.) Surely something can be worked out! I handled the process too business-like and too scientific for the attempt to fail!
As badly as I want the chance to capture "Act" on television, the Kentucky Kingdom position still captures my interest, in spite of the fact that is would be little more than what I have been doing at the fairgrounds! Hell! In the all the Park only operates on weekends; I could make all Pre-Production plans up here and tape in November down in Tuscaloosa.
Even postpone the Senior Project until the Winter Semester: it's been this long in gathering the means to do "Act"! What's another 4-5 months?
I am an opportunist; all I can do is push ahead with what I am 'given.' I can't control my 'bookings' - only how each is approached!
A dreary, Overcast, dark morning. SOMEONE will, no doubt, answer for this!

(acerca 11:16 A.M.) Well, it's official: I am now a legal Kentuckian! It's up to circumstances, now, how long I actually use that status!
The Driver Licence Bureau is NOT at Bowman Field! Not exactly - it's BEHIND it on Dutchman's Lane. The #23-Breckingridge TARC got me to Bowman Field this morning around 9:00 A.M.; I then learned the State Police/Driver Licence Bureau was not in the Administration Building!
So I followed the trail around the corner (some corner! A half-mile or so!).
I wasn't too outstanding on the vision test! But I was 'passed.'
The written exam (in reality, a computer-montored, multiple choice test) went better for me. Out of forty questions, I skipped four or five, which was o'kay: a score of 32 out of 40 was all that I needed. And the questions I did 'submit to,' I answered correctly.
Nine dollars - I donated a buck for Organ Donor Education and other charges (Organ donation is nothing more than recycling!) made me a new citizen of Kentucky.
Lucky for me there wasn't a Hearing Test: most of the directions articulated by the 'agents' had to be repeated!
But I am at a new stage of life: Kentucky Citizenship! I suppose it's as good as Alabama Citizenship! And I can always use that ranking if I become a graduate student at the University of Louisville: I won't have to pay out-of-state tuition.
At the moment other benefits elude me. I'm sure there may be some, but what they are I have no idea!
March is nasty and spiteful today! Air stings! So I guess Winter has found a way back in!
I hope You don't have designs on the whole of the month, Winter! Spring already has a claim on the latter part!

(acerca 7:03 P.M.) There is a lot of my money being held in 'escrow,' so to speak: deposits, Month-in-advance telephone payment. I will, at least, have funds to leave Louisville on!
It was only a little over two weeks ago that I let the Independent Study Office know of my new address. Maybe it takes more time than that to update the computer. Hell! it took Dr. McKenzie's letter almost three weeks to catch up with me!
If I want to graduate in December I must have my Senior Project Committee Meeting by June 1. And it requires around six weeks to set one up. That means I must submit the 'reservation' by mid-April!
I practice Flute while before the window - in the nude, of course. This way, I can satisfy two cravings at once!

(3rd, Around 8:17 A.M.) At around 8:17 A.M., March 3, 1994 is beautiful! For Winter, that is. Cloudless sky, heavy dose of sunshine, only a caressing, gentle breeze!
It's Winter in Spring-Clothing here in Louisville, KY! But as long as Winter remains true to the disguise, and unless the whole thing is a trick of some sort, Winter can Cross-Dress all It wants to, and nobody will laugh!
Thursday; all I seem to do, when not commited to Work, is stay in my room and read. I remain in readiness for telephone business, but that mode of 'booking' only brings responses every other day or so.
Therefore, each call is expensive! Is is cost-effective to 'rent' telephone service, when the 'business' only brings in the occassional 'ring'?
I am not in Louisville for the Big City excitement, to gobble up the sights. I am in Louisville - because of sheer luck! If it hadn't been for Buckles and Mary, I would never have chosen this city to 'base' in!
Well, Buckles and Mary are a thing of the past; but, unfortunately, I went ahead with a project. And I can't really leave until I complete it. I just as soon depart Louisville this afternoon, but the prospect of victory - the Kentucky Kingdom job - is keeping me here. I have waited almost a year, put out a lot of money, Leslie put in some long hours, on this project. By Cause and Effect I should be awarded at least a job for most perservence!
If I am awarded a position with Kentucky Kingdom, residency in Louisville until November would be no Big Deal. Otherwise, I would have to begin again in yet a new city!

(acerca 12:49 P.M.) Winter must have lost the Poker Game to Autumn: it sure looks and feel like Fall out there! The Autumnal Chill has even been included!
How gorgeous it is!
Not counting the phone services I had when I was living at the Wesley House as a student ('69? '70?), I paid my first bill this morning! $60.00! Of course, some of that I will get back when I 'blow' this town. And there was the installation fee. The bill will be much less next month.
But my first major bill! And it wasn't above my means to pay it - yet. However, I feel that my Cash Cache will be o'kay for awhile: I have the refund from the Book Store (there should be action taken on it this time!), the refund from "Reader's Digest," and the Income tax refunds. And don't leave out Unemployment's contribution, small as it is!
The $200 paycheck I will get tomorrow will really take my account up a notch! Even if bad becomes worse, I most likely will be awarded financial aid. Although I had rather that 'hand-out' be saved for some one else, or when I really need it. I am fully capable of holding down a job at Kentucky Kingdom!
As you can see, I have the leisure to design a future project WITHOUT be hassled by Money Worries.
Is it Louisville, or could it have always been like this? That is something I will always wonder about!

(acerca 9:08 P.M.) I'm almost definite 2 or 3 people say my 'act'; one may have been male. The 'audience' had the stairwell across the courtyard as their 'boxseats.' The voyeurs were young - early teens or younger - but they understood the drama anyway.
A barre/work-out, a club-juggle session in my room ' what more of a deal can I make with Fate? Can't I please have Kentucky Kingdom? Pretty please?!

(4th, About 8:20 A.M.) I have an 'appointment' at the Unemployment Office later this morning. I hope I won't be denied my $37 this week! I didn't work at an income-generating job, so the thirty-seven dollars, although not much of a Provider, will at least buy some food.
Phoebus is 'pushy' with Its 'Skill'; an outstanding Teamwork all around! Even Clouds contributed just a token supply of Strips - 5 or six in the Southern Sky!
Spring's Supervision is sure apparent!
I completed Lesson 15 yesterday; tomorrow I will send it off to the Independent Study Office. I sure would like to be done with the course, final and all, by April 15, the Opening Day of Kentucky Kingdom!
Speaking of Kentucky Kingdom, is there any reason I can't combine regular work and Work/Study at the Amusement Park? In that way I can keep my 'career' going while adding a share to the financial aid I hope to get.

(acerca 11:24 A.M.) Only to sign my name two times, and date it, on a form, and to be asked my prospects for Full-time work: my sole reason for the 'appointment' with Unemployment. It required less than five minutes, and the 'counslor' was formal and uncaring.
I had number 808, and had a wait from 795; but I was called up by 10:35 A.M.
The Human Resourses Cabinet is on CEDER Street, not Canal! I was unsure of the location (even though I been there several times!) and asked for directions to Canal. Being told there was no Canal Street, I inquired about the location of the Unemployment Office. I was 'updated' as to the name of the street.
Cedar is a side street off Sixth Street, a half-block from Chestnut.
I got the chance to see the final 3 or 4 minutes of the original INVASION OF THE BODY-SNATCHERS and the first five minutes or so of the remake (Donald Sutherland, Veroncia Cartwright, Leonard Nemoy) - the Unemployment shows movies to clients awaiting 'appoitments; damn! I felt like sticking around after my 'consultation' to view the rest of the film! BODY-SNATCHERS is a classic Science Fiction 'flick'! I must arrange to see it!
Lesson 13 received a 'B-' - and a criticism of my cynicism. I don't know what it is the 'Prof.' wants first. I am accused of not dealing with the assign readings. And now I am called on the table for voicing my opinions of the readings!
Surely, the 'Prof' doesn't want me to 'parrot' those, as he calls them, "very brilliant people"! Isn't philosophy independent and 'original' thinking?
Anyway, another lesson came on in! Most likely, Lessons 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, and 12 will show up once they pass through the Change-Over at the Post Office.
I will mail Lesson 15 in a regular envelope (business-size), being that I still haven't received a batch of 'special' envelopes from the Independent Studies Office. For I can't allow the Civil Unrest to slow down my College!

(acerca 6:21 P.M.) That will 'larn' me not to presume to take advantage of Winter's weakness!
I debated whether to go pick up my paycheck in person, or let them mail it to me. After all, why should I have to spend a dollar (bus fare for the round-trip)!
But I decided, what the hell! I would bus to the fairgrounds, pick-up the check - $217.80 - and walk back, it being such a beautiful day.
I had a hunch I would be offered work when I reported for pay; and, sure enough, I received an assignment for West Wing! The Kentucky Beef Expo is being held this week - which is why I couldn't figure out the reason for the "no work this week" Personnel handed me over the telephone Monday morning!
Anyway, I kept the two smaller Cattle Washes shit free.
Something also led me to wear seams and a work shirt, instead of the semi-formal suit I had worn to Unemployment.
Say what you want to: the Future dows communicate with one!
Actually, it was a question of understanding how the Fairgrounds operate: unorganized, sloppy, inefficient!
I got in three hours this afternoon: 15 minutes were 'milked,' in order to insure 3 hours (I clocked in at 1:11 P.M.). Work begins in the morning at 5:53 A.M. - so I will only have 13 or so hours on a paycheck next Friday.
There goes the $37 for non-work! Instead, it will be around fifty for the Cattle Care! Thanks just the same, Unemployment! And don't worry: there may come a time again real soon when I will need that 'allowance'!
March Winds are in place. Today was (and still is) a blowy day.
Lesson 15 is in the box, awaiting an early Saturday afternoon trip to Tuscaloosa.
I took care of business the first part of the week; so maybe Fate was behind this Job Joviality!
I have no reason to be tired; but I am sluggish for an overabundance of supper. The Deli at Kroger supplied some damn good 'vittles'!

(5th, About 3:48 A.M.) I have a feeling the early 'call' is for removal of the fecal matter of the 'ladies'! The 'show' doesn't begin until mid-morning at the earliest. We see.

(acerca 6:09 P.M.) 12 ½ hours this week: that's $51. I will be lucky if I bring home forty-five!
Not much point in slaving all those hours, is there, when I can sit in my room and study, or go outside - if Winter continues like today, warmish, right, clear, cloudless! - and practice juggling in the park, and still get a 'paycheck' for $37!
Of course, I would miss the lesson in Cattle Category. For instance, this afternoon, a lady asked me about the limousine. give away or sale. Thinking of the conveyance that carries people in style, I showed bewildement and said I had no idea. Little did I know that limousine was a kind of cattle!
Now, would I have taken that learning on myself? No! But the fairgrounds provided the Classroom!
I spent the day cleaning up after cattle; there were showings at day in set-up area in the pavilion.
What goes around, comes around, as I have always heard. I began the Fairgrounds Hands-on Training in the West Wing; and I am back with 'em! As you recall, a complain against James Cleveland's bossiness over mopping got me discharged from that department.
It's appropriate that a new arrangement in Lifestyle falls back on the beginnings of my Amusement Business non-performing 'career'! It's as if I am being ordered to do it right this time!
I am to report at 7:23 A.M., in the morning: could be I am once again a Petty Casher with the West Wing.
What will become of all of this? Next week is the week I have been 'building for' for months! And then there's my studies, possibly On-campus next Fall.
Ever since the Break-Up, things have been happening so crazily and to my advantage. I don't want Full-time work at the fairgrounds, but would like to have the occassional connection until Kentucky Kingdom takes me as a Loyal Subject.
And what a Loyal Subject I would be! If only I am granted Citizenship!

(acerca 9:16 P.M.) No wonder I'm having such a hard time keeping my balance when I walk across the room! And all this time I thought my Inner Ear was completely gone!
From the hall to the outside wall there is a downward slope - I would judge it to be 15-degrees. That's the reason the juggling clubs keep flipping away from me. Sleep has been 'challenged' but I never knew by what, until now. I proped up the low side of the bed with 2 paperback books; I hope it is enough compensation. I will find out tonight, I guess!
Male or female, I don't know - and usually don't care! - but two bodies were out on the stairwell that services their apartment (or girlfriend's apartment) and coped a 'Screening.' The Reviews? Favorable, I hope!

(6th) Louisville, KY, turned in such a gorgeous Sunday, March 6, 1994! It was Spring: warm, sunny, clear, breezy! And I was telling people how much I dislike this city! It is doing Its best, as a city not in the North completely, but neither is It on South's Team! Great weather, adequate means to support myself, good prospects of a job as a student - how can I complain about an area that seems to be 'clicking' for me?
Ten hours of Work today, first sweeping and mopping the seating area of Broadbent while the Kentucky State Hockey Tournament was on-going. I never realized Hockey was such a popular sport up here.
That's the Big Advantage of being back in the West Wing: I can see Hockey up close. I get a chance to familiarize myself with the game.
A Sports Appreciation laboratory, you might say!
The Flea Market is being held, in the West Wing this month, instead of the usual East Wing. So we are having to clear away the Beef Expo as fast as we can: the Flea Market is next weekend, and some exhibitors will be expecting space by Wednesday. We'll give it to'em! Hell! most of the West Wing and pavillion are back to normal, anyway! So it took nearly everyone of the fairground's payroll!

(7th, About 5:58 A.M.) Today should start a productive week: I should be receiving the lessons 7-12. And there are several other items of import that should be reaching me.
And this begins the period when Kentucky Kingdom begins filling 'slots' for the 1994 season! Fate, don't let my many months of hoping, my submission o the indignaties of the fairgrounds, and the development of a resume and sales packet, plus the expense of a photograph and other administrative 'necessaries,' be all in vain! Please give me a 'shot' at amusement part, a venue I have never experienced and on that would be so 'right;' for me! Even if it is only as a Ride Operator! That would be an interesting position!
If you recall, it was my inability to deal with James Cleveland's bossiness which led to my original separation from the West Wing. Apparently, he suppose to carry such 'weight' he still does it, sanctioned by Clarence and Joe.
A Working Man has to put up with this type of humiliation. So, as long as I insist on playing Working Man, I'll just have to swallow my dosage!

(acerca 4:47 P.M.) Dr. MeKenzie stated by letter that he felt I deserved an 'A' on the Analytical Thinking From Experience contract; and, of course I feel I deserve one, too! So that's 12 Quality Points that will really help my overall Grade Average.
I received the graded and criticized Lessons 11 and 12. Lesson 11 earned an 'A' and the first positive comment from the Prof. "Good paper!", he wrote.
A 'B ' on Lesson 12: my cynicism still pisses him off! Well, if he can't take a joke, fuck him!
So there remains four lessons still out there. Lost In Space: undoubtedly, there are being 'detained by the Post Office until there 'new home' can be discovered.
It would be great to be able to pull off a 'B ' or 'A-' on this philosophy course! The Final will be the deciding factor.
It appears I will be setting up and working a Flea Market. Another venture into Industrial Sow Business will I have!
When that 'lady' denied me employment last Monday, little did she realize that I have already been involved with Cattle Stall set-up; and it would have been redundant labor which Fate wouldn't allow.
This is the reason I want Kentucky Kingdom! It would be and untroddened Venue. And while I am in Louisville, anyway, and using the 'Lab' next to it, what a shame if I don't get a crack at it!
For who knows if I will ever be in Louisville, KY, ever again, once I leave this city!
Rain succeeded in the Coup of Spring. Winter is returning to Power! Already the Air is announcing the Come Back.
Zephyr has been re-designed and is ready to spread Winter's Message across the area.
March just may be a Mother!
Eighteen hours so far this week.

(acerca 9:39 P.M.) Rain carried of a Night Attack; not a Blitz, but a Keeping-us-on-the-alert kind.
I practiced juggling facing 'uphill tonight; it was an embarrassing session, but only because I have been 'involved' on a different angle. I sure that when I practice outside, on relatively level ground, I will have a better go of it.
Why not just walk naked down First Street!? I have both windows unshaded, and the lighting is sufficient to illuminate my nudity to all outdoors.
I wonder if I could? How far would I make it?

(8th, Hell! Winter is loose! Somehow it got out of Its restraints!
It was so lovely Sunday! But Tuesday? March 8, 1994, is a demon! This weather in Louisville, KY – is it Winter, Spring, or Autumn here (Summer is not in the Debate; for when Summer sets-in, no one disputes It!)?
Eight hours today - 26 so far this week - of unplugging Drains in West Wing so that they could be 'flushed' out. Then bringing in some stages to Room 3 of West Hall. To fill the Work Day, we picked-up trash in the seating area of Broadbent.
The Icehawks (Hockey team, Minor League) had more spectators than I suspected. If trash indicates anything.
Rain didn't give up until Cold was firmly established. I hope it doesn't do what I hear tell may happen!

9 March ((Wednesday), Louisville, KY

I'll be damned! if Winter didn't do it again! It smothered Spring with a 4-6" Blanket! A Powdery Dusting from the Department of Underhandedness!
March 9, 1994; Snow's Infiltration of Louisville, KY, is still going on, but on a 'routine,' laid-back bases.
Wednesday - and it's bound to be cold! I hate to ever go out, just to 'catch' the bus!
No one at work believes my claims: that I was a Circus Clown, and that I have returned to college. Could be my speech pattern convinces them of my 'Dim-Wittedness.'
Of course, I really don't care! Education, at least how I have always approached it, is not a competitive sport. One shouldn't be pushy about it, but become involved with it for its own sake.
In fact, it is better this way; otherwise I could never really become a Working Man. I would be treated more 'honorably.' I can be'˜one of the boys' as long as my academic projects and aspirations are not taken seriously.

(acerca 6:16 A.M.) When I am picking-up trash I stand on one level, keep my legs non-bending, and grab the article on the level below my feet. It perserves limberness, but is exhausting when done all day!

(acerca 6:40 P.M.) It always happens when I mop and sweep the entire Eight. It is so degrading, so humiliating! Is this all I will ever be able to do for a living? The Circus wasn't THAT bad!
Plus, the weather is miserable and nasty: slush has most of the ground covered. The paper-thin frosting of ice collaspes when you step on it, and Water does a Surprise Attack.
And the Wind refused to allow me to use Umbrella as a shield against the Sleet Mist.
But is all this any reason to surrender human reason and Collectiveness to Twenty minutes? I missed the 4:09 P.M. #2 TARC by less than half a second! I saw it coming as I was approaching the Stop/Shelter on Crittenden and Boxley, across from Burger King. My yells, though, were to no avail.
So I struggled on down Crittenden, dreading the hike home. A Construction site to the north of Eastern Parkway, near the campus, had a warning barrier; but stubborn me crossed it. And found himself boxed in. So I had to backtrack, and hunt down a trail to the other side.
Well, I succeeded in that. Just in time for the 4:33 P.M. TARC which travels Floyd, passing by MacDonald's.
Twenty minutes are nothing in comparison to situations I must deal with routinely! And they're sure aren't worth traumatijing over!
I am also anxious to hear from Kentucky Kingdom. I don't want to sue for Age Discrimination, but if I have to, I will resort to this weapon.
Of course, no one said the contact would be by phone! It could very well come through the Post!

(acerca 8:27 P.M.) How darest it to Snow again! As I write, a light Dusting is being sprinkled over us. Are we part of Somebody's Feast? It could be Winter is preparing a Surprise Party for Spring!
Well, I hate surprises! Because they usually turn nasty and cruel!
Or is Earth Powdering Her Nose for the Date with Spring? Methinks She is overdoing it!
No wonder daylight is on duty for twenty-four hours at a time, every day, up in the Northern latitudes! The snow stores it and shines with it so that Phoebus can rest! At least tonight is brighter than usual.
Phoebe almost matches Phoebus Lightcandles by Lightcandle.

10 March ((Thursday), Louisville, KY

At one second past 2:07 P.M. - nay! less than one second! - Overtime takes over for the exhausted Forty! At $6.37 an hour I suppose I can tolerate mopping, scooping maure, and other low-grade work!
Is it the job that is resulting in a soreness of the shoulders and Upper Chest, or is the Club juggle sessions at fault? Each is important to keep up, but both demands 100% physicality.
One of the challenges is to satisfy both needs.
March 10, 1994: Snow is not moving on - It is not falling for March's Bluff.
Hopefully It doesn't have a Large Family!
Thursday, Louisville, KY. I will try to handle whatever dysfunctional situations occurs today.

(acerca 6:54 P.M.) Phoebus ate Snow without hiding the Act from our eyes! He was that taken with Snow's beauty!
Air actually got up to the low-40-degrees (F.) this afternoon! Snow has no defense against this Kind of Talk. So She retreats and/or surrenders.
Eight Hours - the final two sponsored by Overtime - of cleaning up after last night's Hockey Game. All of a sudden I am in Minor League Hockey! And I am a tyro at the sport!

11-18 March, Louisville, KY

(11th) About 5:08 P.M.) Spring is back to Her flirtatious ways! She is taunting Winter with Her charm and Physical Endowment.
Keep in mind the song, Winter: "Lemon tree, very pretty, and the lemon flower is Sweet. But the fruit of the poor lemon is impossible to eat!"
Don't fall for the Temptation Please! Avoid the Whore at all Cost!
It is, and has been, lovely! Sun is licking Snow's you-know-what! Few clouds care to witness the Sexual Liaison. Those that happened to be leisurely strolling by soon left in disgust.
What a beautiful day! Such days make one realize that the "miserable," "nasty" days are just periods of Repair and Re-enforcement. Even Beauty needs a rest now and then! Otherwise, would we appreciate it?
It was deja-vu on the opposite side of the Coliseum this morning! The snow came out of the cold by hijacking cars and trailers entering the West Wing, West Hall, and Pavillion for Flea Market set-up. So for about four hours the deteriorating, dying snow had to be mopped up. The Body Count wasn't as numerous as it was during the Boat Show in the East Wing; it was an abbreviated Post-mortern just the same.
My policy is: no days off, only weeks off. My schedule beyond tomorrow - clock in at 5:53 A.M. - is something I can't figure out!
When will my final Last Day be?
Eight hours today, fifty for the week (so far). I could very easily break 60 tomorrow!
Just $47.47 this week; remember, I told you I would be lucky to bring home $50 for the 12.5 hours I put in last Friday afternoon, and Saturday!

(acerca 6:22 P.M.) A deposit of $258.27 brings my Life Savings to almost $500. Enough to pay the rent and the telephone fill! Of course, there's more money on the way, so I do not panic.
52 cents, and Lesson 16 - handwritten due to a shortage of a workable ribbon for the typewriter - is on its way. I think it's about time Independent Study caught up - it is accumalating too many of my graded assignments. I hope we become even before I am ready for the Final. Although I have serious doubts such will happen. Most likely I will have to hold off on that Final until I collect all 18 lessons. In April, say.

(15th) 1:43 A.M.) Yes, I realize today is Tuesday, March 15, 1994, and you haven't heard from me since last Friday, the 11th! But I was otherwise occuppied, and, for the first time ever, you, Journal, wasn't with me!
I had a weekend retreat at the Jefferson County Jail. It was the dues I paid for the Window Undressing; for some man called the police on me Friday evening - the Bad Judgement Call on my part. I didn't know my audience! - and the Cat and Dog team stood on the porch opposite my modelling studio, and caught the act.
I am glad there at least was a female to close down my show!
Arbitration was Saturday morning. I was faced with a $50 bond. Since I knew no one in Louisville, KY, I had to stay until the Federal Cut: that's when the federal court does legal triage, to lessen the population in the jail.
The County refuse to allow me to be escorted across the street from the jail, on Jefferson and 7th, and use the A.T.M. So I had to experience Life in the Pen.
I will tell you a little about it. But later – it is 1:43 A.M., I am tired, and turned-around. Later today I will lay on you the whole story.
Reckon I should enroll in a Criminal Justice course? I swallowed a big dose of that so-called American Justice this weekend.

(acerca 7:26 A.M.) You see, it was Monday evening (only yesterday? I have always heard that Nightmares cannot be entrapped by time!) that the Vacate occurred. Being a forced release by the U.S. Government, all the 'orders' were, undoubtedly, signed and recorded before we received the summons. But the Group of 15 (7 blacks, 8 whites) had to wait over three hours for the county to follow through! I'm sure it was with relunctance that the county submitted to the Feds.
So it was the next day - Tuesday, today - that became the offecial Freedom Day.
I tell you, it is all a different ballgame from the inside! Now I can 'feel' Prison/jail scenes in movies and television!
I will, of course, be returning to my Vacation; but first allow me to brag about an 'A' I earned from the attention I gave Lesson 14. The instructor, a Dr. J.E. Zeigler, most likely a First-of-May, or Johnnie-Come-Lately in academe, even labelled the 'assignment' a "Good Paper."
So I have two 'A's, one 'C,' and the rest 'B's, 'B-'s, and 'B 's. Of course, Lessons 7-10 are still being 'detained' by the Okalona Post Office, until where they should be is established. But a 'B' or an 'A-': it would be so nice to have that on my transcript as a 'level' of Philosophy association!

(acerca 8:30 P.M.) What a moving, beautiful Campaign Speech Spring gave today! I was Swayed - literally! The wind several times pushed me forward!
With the exception of breakfast, the jailhouse meals were very good! Brocoli Caserole, fish patties, boiled cabbage, bean soup - better than I would have on the outside, unless I went to a restaurant. And it was free! Well, sort of.
I was handcuffed and escorted to a police car; the garage doors to the County Jail are electronically controlled; I waited against the wall outside the 'basement' door, handcuffed, until my time had come.
Indecent Exposure is not a Macho Crime - the police officiers assembled stared and giggled. Even in the Holding Cells, in which I passed through endlessly, made light of my offense.
I was fingerprinted and photographed. I was teamed with many - and I mean MANY! - real desperadoes: Drunks, drug users and dealers, murderers, etc., the whole gambit of Scrum.
Arraignment wasn't until 9:00 A.M., Saturday, so I knew I would be missing work. I tried to call around 5:30 A.M., but the Switchboard would not accept the Ameri Call, Collect Call from the Jefferson County Jail. Only Monday Afternoon did I finally get 'picked-up,' and left a message on Clarence Brumbach's answering machine, although knew it would be to no avail.
And it was. I only made the contact out of desperation: I wanted out, and I knew nobody else on the 'outside' to post my fifty dollar bond (as I may have said, I wasn't allowed access to the A.T.M. across the street from the jail). I was trying to rely strictly on myself and my own resources to get out of the self-induced inconvenience.
By the way, the blind is now covering that window: the females must be disappointed, but they can blame that one Snitch. And, too, I want no ammonition for any snooping detective; snooping was my downfall, as it is!
Anyway, Saturday afternoon I was taken, along with 8 or 9 others (we were all handcuffed together), to the Sirth (or was it fifth) Floor. I was a new occupant of Cell Three.
14 or 15 of us in all, there was two Sleeping Areas on opposite sides of a 'Den.' T.V. privileges from about 3:00 P.M., until 10;30 P.M. The latest Louisville Courier-Journal each morning (I at last, at least, found out what was coming down around me!).
As I finally 'fit in' among the fairgrounds people, I probably would have eventually found a niche in jail. My cellmates weren't nearly as despicable as one think of Convicts. To the contrary, they were more civilized than a lot of Society Folk!
Of course, the archetypal Ciminal is never caught and locked away; so I didn't get a very good chance at Judgement.
The 'Counselors,' the Guards - no one was willing to help me even make a phone call in order to have money transferred from my aeeount, or have the Telephone Company wire the Bond Charge, and add it to my bill.
Ant the usual thoughts of suicide engulfed me. Here I was, a bond of just 50 bucks, and I had to undergo this indignity! Although I guess I deserved it. Hell! I know I did!

(16th, Around 8:43 A.M.) Actually, Mama is nearer the truth than what I have been telling Joyce: Mama called yesterday around 7:45 P.M. (Eastern Time) and commence to lay on the Motherly concern and advise; about updating my wardrobe, becoming a Church-goer. She has a gut feeling that my Indecent Exposure is a result of a 'personality defect.'
And she is damn-near right!
March 16, 1994, another Campaign Swing through the area by Spring. A beautiful sunny, cloudless Wednesday; the morning (around 8:43 A.M.) is at least. Yesterday late afternoon Nimbus and some more Black-Botom Clouds censored Spring's Speech. Only a warning, not a Vashing, though.
Louisville, KY: damn! if my life isn't different as a Jailbird! And it may be even more modified come Tuesday!
I tell Joyce that my arrest came about due to a blind that is a foot short of the bottom of the window, and was carelessly raise another foot to take in the Improving Tone of the day. Some voyeur wanted revenge on me.
I told people in jail I took a pee outside.
Of course, the Court will be told the real story! Let's hope my confession of guilt will be enough to 'inspire' the judge to suspend any sentence!

(acerca 5:14 P.M.) Nimbus arrived early this morning to warn Spring that, arranging the day as if it was Her Own, Winter still has 48 hours or so remaining in Its Term. And to insure that Winter gets an active hearing to the very end, Chill was posed as Guard.
A beautiful day, but cold. I didn't count on that Warning, and failed to wear my gloves this morning.
Chill slopped my hands. It is NOT Spring until Sunday! That was emphasized rather strongly!
I spent the morning at the Law Library at the Law School on Campus. I read cases applicable to Indecent Exposure, which is connected to Obscenity Acts.
Indecent Exposure is a Common Law offense, meaning that how it is handled is up to the individual judge and/or jury, It's CRIMINAL to pull out one's penis while sitting in a car parked by a street traveled by the Public Pedestrians. Or to lure kids at a school bus stop and flash them. Even nude swimming on a public beach can get one into trouble. All are acts which are technically beyond Indecent Exposure.
Posing in front of a Window - that is an act of a Sexually Delinquant person. The 'sentence' usually includes counseling, rehabitation, etc. - not 'hard' time, but Therapy.
Indecent Exposure of the sort I did is a misdemeanor. It is not unlike a case of exhibiting a porno flick.
So I'm sanquine that I will come out of this with only a warning, a fine, and ordered to therapy.
One thing is sure, though” this 'scare' has made me reconsider the contents of a Louisville Showing!
I continue to carry out my business: study, flute practice, juggling practice. This is not a diseaster for me, only an inconvenience. Life will end when it ends; all this life-enhancement is a means not the Tinal End. No one can even begin to know the Final End! All one can do is keep plugging away, in hopes Fate will arrange things to one's advantage.
Fate is the Choreographer of Life, and uses the best in order that Her Production will be the best possible. Apparently She deems I need this 'additional' preparations before considering my 'talents.'
It could be I am taking this all too lightly. But next Tuesday, I will find out.

(acerca 9:30 P.M.) The crime I should be punished for is this lying to Joyce and Leslie, this insistence that it is all just a case of a 'Drugie' turning me in on an innocent charge because I wouldn't play his game. Hell, the truth will come out - after I am dead and they read this journal!
When I talked with Leslie by telephone this afternoon, she was considering coming up next Tuesday for my trial. I did my best to discourage her without allowing panic to overcome me. For, as we all know, much will come out at that Inquisition, stuff I have been hiding from Leslie, Joyce, Mama - hell! everyone! And if Leslie was to come to Louisville, the detective work - I'm sure there was some! - will reveal many dark secrets. I don't want Leslie to find out, not now, not that way.
Of course, I deserve that 'sentence,' too, I suppose.
In jail I was called 'Pops' and asked by a fellow inmate if I lived in an Old Man's Home! My act of a lonely-Old Man-done wrong was a success: even the hardhearted was feeling sorry for me!
Now, if I can only draw forth similar reaction from the court!
What an experience Louisville is turning out to be!

(17th) Today is Thursday. Cold is back on Patrol. Spring continues to be aggressive with Her Tactics.
March 17, 1994, Louisville, KY. I hope my finances can survive until I am awarded the Student aid. I don't know how much more work I can get out of the fairgrounds. And I may have a substandial fine to pay as a result of my Showmanship. Union dues, you might say!
I think I have enough Cash Cache for at least another month. If I can get pass that 'hump,' I will have no problem. But what a slow, tedious climb it will be!

(acerca 3:30 P.M.) The Secret Police are surrounding us; it seems we are supporting Spring too much.
Hazy, darkish, Storm-threatening - all because Winter complained to the Judge that Spring was taking over more than Her Share of March!
I should be more active; but, unless I have an 'apointment,' I feel it is best if I just lock myself in my room. I was at the Louisville Free Public Library this morning - I still can't find anything definite about Indecent Exposure.
By the way, did I tell you how the court reporter and all gauked at my pudendus after the Baliff, or whoever, announced my alleged crime? I suppose they wanted to see the 'Indecent Erposure'!
I was only in my nightclothes - sweatpants (no underwear) and a navy blue thermal top. That is the way I was 'nabbed.' My 'thing' was highlighted, therefore.
The Personel Director at Kentucky Kingdom told me hiring would begin the second week of March. Am I to assume that means positions still remain unfilled?

(18th, Around 8:28 A.M.) Although I really shouldn't have a long-term Work assignment until after my trial next Tuesday morning, I could use a fairgrounds job covering tonight, tomorrow night, and Sunday night. Sure, I still have the $37 if I don't get employment each week; but that is only half the rent, and won't even begin to take care of food and other living expenses.
I have tuition to pay - that is, when I enroll in another course. Being almost done with PHL 100C (I am on the final lesson, and the Close-out exam will be in 3 or four weeks), I need to avoid a 'gap' in my studies. Any financial aid won't kick in until at least June.
Assuming no prison tome results from my little escapade, I will investigate the Kentucky Kingdom situation Tuesday afternoon. For I still would very much be excited and honored by a position. I could even do a Out-of-Class Learning contract!
March 18, 1994, Friday in Louisville, KY. At around 8:28 A.M., Spring took over the day rather early, realizing that any moment Winter will demand it back.
Everyone else can be drunk, perform sloppy work, etc., and still keep a connection with the fairgrounds. But not me: I was detained, didn't show up Saturday, and end up 'dis-barred.' A case of Double Jeopardy if I ever saw one!
I completed Lesson 17 yesterday evening; hopefully, I will send it off this afternoon.

(acerca 11:00 A.M.) A 'B' on Lesson 15; it looks like I will only pull a 'B' out of the course. That is, of course, unless I do a super job with the Final.
As happened with the Physics course, I will be denied four lessons before I take on that Final. But since I have received a graded Lesson 15, obviously the Prof had access to Lessons 7-10. And that all that really matters anyway!

(acerca 1:26 P.M.) Spring is using Her Army to get through the Defenses of Winter! Wind is fighting with all it has! It is pushing anything and anyone that is in the way aside!
The Branches are providing the Martial Music.
Momentarily, the power to this Apartment Building was knocked out: my clock flashed for assistance.
A warm, gorgeous day Spring has established, in spite of the Bloodshed. Phoebus is so scared that He is running around and occassionally hids behind the Clouds surrounding the Palace!
A great Victory for Spring, it seems! Of course, the War isn't over yet!
Out of the $227.35 I managed to 'chip' from the 7 1/2-day West Wing job, I stored $202.35 in my Band Account.
As I have stated many times before, I can't understand my relationship with the fairgrounds. I was asked by the two women in the Time Clock Room what happened to the job; it seems some people inquired about my 'status'; Does this mean I will be re-enstated? That more work will come my way? Damn! if I can figure it all out! I just wish the 'transfer' to Kentucky Kingdom will hurry and come through!
Incidently the Patrol Car that took me to jail was parked on Caldwell Street, just before the Overpass of I-65 swallowed vehicles and people. It is now a Historic Sight, and should be preserved.
Lesson 17 only needed 26 more cents in postage - I had attached 3-1 cent stamps to it already - for the journey to Tuscaloosa.

(acerca 4:23 P.M.) Zephyr had a 'No Club-juggling' injunction posted: It knew I had 'scheduled' a practice session outside the next warm day.
I didn't defy the Order; how could I? Wind is so powerful, there's no way the Clubs would have co-operated with me!
But there was nothing warning against other forms of juggling! So I took a bag of balls to Central Park (4th Street, 6 or 7 blocks from here) and had about a 54-minutes practice.
It felt great finally being able to practice Al Fresco! And I flustrated Zephyr: try though It did, Balls were able to withstand, nay, ignore, the Blow Job.
Unless I am serving a prison term, I will be in the park every Spring day that I am not working! For we all know my design: get Academia to carry m career along! So, therefore, I must not back-off. Even if prison becomes my temporary 'base,' I still must follow up on Mime in my Future!

(acerca 6:20 P.M.) I cleaned house and organized all my stuff: for I have a sneaky feeling Tuesday I will be 'invited' to a 'retreat' for 2 or 3 months! With the way this case has been handled, I have no doubt of my future.
At least I will have the opportunity to attend to my studies full-time, without the interruption of work!
Actually, it will be nice to have a way from this Slum Dwelling. As you know, I was going to move by November at the latest. I did not, however, figure to be relocated by April.
I can sure use the 'vacation' to study and review for the Philosophy Final!

19 March (Saturday, Louisville, KY

Today is Winter '94 final day in Office. Spring is back arranging the days. Like, for instance, today, the 19th of March 1994: sunny, clear, calm. However, Winter leaves behind a legacy of a solf Chill. Not a cruel one, but one to remember It by.
I just hope Spring doesn't turn around and become dictatorial before Summer can step in!
To liven up the place, and hopefully to straighten me out, I a G.E.-AM/FM/FM Stero Radio/Cassette Play/Recorder this morning from McCory on 4th Street, near the Galleria. It cost $37.09, but the 'therapy' will be more valuable.
Ironically, the same station that was interfering with my telephone conversations is the one I intend to listen to - in fact is coming through the radio as I write. WFPK-Public Radio, broadcasting from the Louisville Free Public Library, 5 or 6 blocks away, is reaching me, as of now, by way of the appropiate instrument. May it stay that way!
My $390.25 Federal Income tax refund was forwarded to me from Alabama. I will have close to a $1000 in my account once I deposit it. Just my luck, though, District Court will lay a steep fine on me!
Louisville, KY, a Saturday. I will be making several other large-priced purchases in the next 2-3 days. And why not? The money will do me no good in prison or after I am dead (whichever comes first!)!

(acerca 3:38 P.M.) Remember how I told you Winter was crying and begging Spring to allow It a full day of Wintering? And how Spring relented, felt compassion, and let Winter assist in the day? Well, Winter took advantage, saw the chance, and did more than just 'assist'! It damn near took over!
Little did Spring know that Winter would pull a Fast One! Backed by Overcast, Winter brought the day to its knees! The Chill grew fierce, and ready for a fight!
But I still did a 58-minute practice session. When listening to the Met on the radio (ADRIANA LECOUVIEUR) I worked on 3- and 4-ball juggling, and even tried out the Clubs, even though the Air was warning against that Team. What the hell! I heed to re-establish a practice regiment, and Air may as well not try to stop me!
In yet another lie and attempt at cruelty, I can prove to Buckles that he is desperate to be correct and my superior, and that he can't. Steve Smith is still Dean of the Clown College, and not Ron Severini. Buckle was out to show that he was an Authority on the Circus, and that I was never really 'into' it. But I have the most recent Alumni Newsletter to prove it!
Every since I knew Buckles he would try to berate and terrorize me! For a long time I was his victum - which is the reason we were 'friends.' However, when I started to rebuff his cruelty and insults - well, we all know what happened!
Buckles is a pitiful, pathetic person! He needed, and needs, a person to belittle and made to feel worthless. For all his 'achievements' were only on a beginner, amateur level He can't or won't stick with one and go with it as far as it would carry him! Maybe I could have done more to help; but Mary, who has so many problems eating at here, 'cancelled' the 'sessions.'
Although I doubt if I could have helped; Buckles would have never admitted his illness.
Isn't it ironic that a normal woman would never, ever accept Buckles and his dysfunction, and Mary, who is the last thing Buckles need, agreed to his 'terms,' most likely because she realized no real man would ever even consider her the way she is?
I found out first-hand how supposively 'Classy' Mary is when I took her to Kentucky Opera's LA BOHEME! She's about as classy as a pig defecating!

20-21 March (Sunday-Monday), Louisville, KY

(20th) Damn! I wish something would happen! The waiting is most unsettling!
The trial, Kentucky Kingdom, financial aid, composition of Lesson 18 - why must everything be so long in coming?
Spring begins her 1994 Reign today; haze, heat, breeze - there are many 'folk' arriving to be a part of the Opening Day Festivities.
The twentieth of March, Sunday in Louisville, KY.
If it wasn't for the fact that I may attend graduate school at the University of Louisville, I would complete the projects (the trial, and hopefully Kentucky Kingdom) that I have set up, and then leave this city for good! But the Master's program in Humanities at U of L is just to tempting to say "never again" to Louisville!
Who would have thought Louisville, KY, would possess something of value?!

(acerca 3:14 P.M.) A delegation from Rain even showed up to be witness to the Swearing-In. And Phoebus was a spectator, even though he had to squeeze through an already packed Parade Route.
Diet and Tobacco: that's whats causing my Alitude Break-down! I must eat better! And I am so addicted to cigarettes, if I don't have my every-two hours 'fix,' I came apart and lash out for no reason!
The detectives snooped around the fairgrounds after I requested such not be done. Of course, who am I, the suspect, to demand certain behavior from the Police?!
Will Tuesday morning never come? Oh, it will soon enough!

(acerca 5:43 P.M.) The radio/cassette player I purchased Saturday came with a form for a 10-rebate from Thomson Consumer Electronics of Liverpool, NY - that is if I send to that office the cash receipt and the UPC (not knowing where the U.P.C. was located, I snipped off several numbers from the box) from the carton. I have the 'order' ready for the 'trip'; and tomorrow it will be on its way!
Of course, it won't be until May before I am likely to see the check. Which is fair - the more guaranteed income I can set up, the better.
As I said yesterday (I think): $37 will be handed over to me in two weeks or so. I didn't work any last week; and I am re-imbursed for it!

(acerca 9:32 P.M.) On Its way to Its Vacation Home, Winter was honored with Lightning and Thunder - applause, if you will. For, as odious as the Winter Administration was, It followed every constitutionally-mandated Order: cold, snow, snow, cold, snow, etc.! It did a great job - as far as Raw weather goes!
But begone Winter! I don't want to see You again until December!

(21st, About 8:33 A.M.) When Winter was supposively leaving tearfully and with acclaim, It was all the time conniving and 'knifing us in the back' to have a Batch of Miserable Weather handicap Spring's Reforms. And it is doing just that – a wet, raw, cold morning! Embarrassing for Spring, but I'm not surprised Winter would do something like that!

(acerca 8:58 A.M.) 61-degrees (F), but it is rather difficult to tell if the day is left over from Winter's Defiance, or if it is only Spring Warming-up!
It was 58-degrees (F) around 1:00 P.M., yesterday.

(acerca 3:45 P.M.) Somehow, Reader's Digest Association, Inc., got my new address! A refund for $9:64 arrived today with the 923 S., 1st St., Apt. 6, locale on the check.
Did the Postmaster of the Okalona P.O. forward a Change of Address to Reader's Digest? For who else had it?
The subscription I cancelled was a gift from Mary; did Reader's Digest seek verification from Mary for the cancellation, and now she knows my whereabouts?
Another reason is leave Louisville!
I was hoping the refund would have been more, but the $9.64 IS $9.64 after all!
I have, at this writing, over $1,050 in my bank account: the deposit of the $390.25 Income Tax refund check this morning took the Cash Cache over the Grand Mark.
I received the SAR (Financial Aid Report) from Iowa City, revised as I had directed, today; it is on its way to Tuscaloosa. I just hope it's not too late for a portion of the money the University has earmarked for Study Assistance!
Unless the fine imposed on me tomorrow is extreme, I should be able to sty afloat during my final stage of residency in Louisville, KY. And I will receive around $150 for quitting the city!
Zephyr was 'hired' by Spring to chase all traces of Winter away. And it was overly zealous at times, damn near bowling me over!
Temperature: approx. 60-degrees (F). So once Zephyr completes Its Assignment, a New Age will be ushered in!

22-23 March (Tuesday-Wednesday), Louisvile, KY

(22nd, 7:16 A.M.) It is 7:16 A.M.; 35-degrees (F).
I go on trial for my life in about an hour and 45 minutes.
March 22, 1994.
Am I overreacting? The charge facing me - indecent exposure - is only a misdeamor, and no way near carries a potential death sentence! But any time in jail I don't think I will be able to tolerate. Any designs on the future will automatically dissolve.
Of course, this is not the first time I have run into legal problems with my Showmanship, in spite of what I tell Leslie and Joyce. Tuscaloosa, Birmingham, Pismo Beach (California) - each city didn't agree with my liberal policy. But this is the fartherest I have ever had to go to clear it up. And I don't know if I can . . .!
Spring is Well-Dressed for my trial: bright, clear, cloudless. I hope She isn't taunting me!
It could be She wants my last day of freedom one I will remember for a long time!
Louisville, KY, the fourth Tuesday in this third month of the ninety-fourth year of this twentieth century of the A.D. period. Maybe even my final day on earth!

(acerca 11:29 A.M.) I be damn! if the Commonwealth isn't going ahead with Criminal Charges! Of course, without an attorney present, my case was 'continued' until April 7. Same time, same place - 9:00 A.M., Court Division Jefferson District Court, #7. I am being 'given' a Public Defender for $50. after I made application.
I faced a woman judge; which was lucky for me! A man judge would have hanged me on the spot! But I was attired in a 3-piece suit, and my demeanor was formal and business-like.
Of course, my speech and hearing loss played well with the Judge.
The female arresting officier was on hand.
The prosecutor recommended counsling: most likely, I will have to undergo test before the April trial.
I never thought Bragging Rights would be so cruelly handled!
If I can get myself out of this with only attendence at therapy, I will be forever indebted to Fate!
Phoebus still glares at us down here. A breeze exist which is a tad chilling, but indications of Warming is noticable.

(acerca 4:57 P.M.) What the hell! I might as well go out with a blaze! My storage of money won't help me in the 'poky,' will it?
I bussed to Jefferson Mall (the Outer Loop, in Okalona) and paid, by check, $74.19 for a Digital Answering System 1710 at the A T & T Phone Store. The Memory Call Answering Service/Voice Mailbox I was renting from South Central Bell was an adaquet temporary answering service, but why pay $5.45 a month, when I can take this A. T. & T. product when I relocate, and I won't have to 'put out' for another installation on the next telephone connection. It is an investment and insurance into future fiscal uncertainities.
Still a beautiful day: brilliant sun, upper-60-degrees (F.). Breezy it is, but not pushy.
I contacted Kentucky Kingdom late this morning about my hiring potential. Supposively, last year's staff gets 'first crack' at the jobs. Then the positions are filled by the applicants List. If this is the real policy, I still have a chance.
And it may be better this way: I can clear up my legal problem and then tackle a new challenge.
Let's hope I can clear this situation up!

(23rd) The Prosecutor yesterday 'told' the judge (and me in a pre-appearance) that I should be evauated. Of course, such would be admitting my guilt before the Official Trial. Which is why I was granted $50 legal consultation.
The judge (Virginia Whittinghall, or some surname of a similar vain) made note of the Prosecutor's comment.
With the exception of possibly a fine, Psychological Counseling is the usual 'punishment' for the 'crime' I did. In most cases, the 'patient' pays for the therapy session him-/herself. That may be tough for me!
The Twenty-third of March 1994; and already April carries a large burden. The April 7th trial (unless I can Plea Bargain before then, which I'm hoping to do), a possible Kentucky Kingdom call-up, notification of Student financial aid, the philosophy final exam, a possible relocation - all must be co-ordinated by Month the IV.
Louisville, KY; maybe it's for the best that I am being forced into therapy. If I am going through the trouble of upgrading myself, why not 'polish' everything? It will be expensive 'training,' but isn't all worthwhile 'training;?
Who would have thought Louisville, KY, would be a provider of 'high-quality' Continuing Education! It will be interesting to see how I come out of all this!

(acerca 10:52 A.M.) Wednesday. I know I have said this several times since December, but I truly believe I am 'finished' with the Kentucky Fair and Exposition Center. Or, shall I say, it is done with me. I have used up all my Second Chances; I told you the Police had a conversation with Personel.
Anybody else could have murdered or raped and still remain in good standing at the fairgrounds. But I am under different, unfair standards.
Not that I really care about regaining the Good Graces out there. But it would have been a source of income until Kentucky Kingdom 'knights; me, or until the Financial Aid award comes in.
Saturday I will pay rent for a month, if the Kingdom hasn't 'invited' me to a City Meeting by then, and Scholarship offers to pay, I will depart this town, only returning for a possible Graduate School liaison. I should be able to swing it financially 5-6 more weeks.
Louisville, KY, is not to blame: all this 'load' could have happened anywhere! Of course it didn't, and Louisville will always hold bad memories for me!

(acerca 1:20 P.M.) I located a nice practice field: a vacant lot/park about a block down First, just beyond a Security System (ADT 1943 South First St.) supply house. The grass is manicured, and trees abound. I held a 50-minute or so session, working mainly the Balls: the Breeze vetoed the Club Act, although I managed about five minutes of that display.
A beautiful Spring Speech: lower-70-degrees (F), clear, bright, friendly clouds. I will make that field my training grounds as long as I am in this location.
A barre/work-out this morning; the psychiatric treatment, the discipline of study and practice (juggling and Flute) - I just may be back in Performance one day soon! Especially since a Police Record kind of closes the door to most other lines of work!
Speaking of study - I submitted Lesson 18, the last assignment to my Professor via the Postal Service this morning. Now I have 3-4 weeks to prepare for the Final Exam.
It just may be more Final than I think!

24-25 March (Thursday-Friday), Louisville, KY

(24th, 7:21 A.M.) At 7:21 A.M., it is 61-degrees (F.). Atlhough damp, overcast, and dreary, the only atmospheric dancing is by Zephyr.
But the choreography was vastly different earlier! It was a violent multi-media Production! And very energetic! Spring put together quite a Show!
The twenty-fourth of May 1994; I am in the studying phase of the Philosophy course. If all goes well, I will take on the Final in 2-3 weeks.
And Dr. Ziegler, the instructor, was correct; for I am amazed how much I am really getting out of the readings now that I am reviewing and hoping for the 'A.' It's a shame that a grade is my motivation, but when I was on campus years ago, aesthetics was my goal - and looked what happened!
Thursday, Louisville, KY; there's a good chance that I will leave the city the 23rd of April. I should be completed with this 'sore spot' irritating me! And the Final will be behind me.
If I don't get anymore work at the fairgrounds, I'm not going to get upset. For 1. I still focus on Kentucky Kingdom; 2. I have enough money in the bank, and due to come in, to carry me through this next month; 3. I am sanquine about Financial Aid.
A bland day: but I suppose we need one occassionally, in order to get the 'Stage Hands' the time to fix up the beautiful days.
7:39 A.M.

(acerca 2:35 P.M.) Actually, a Jail Stay wouldn't be so bad at this point: the Financial Aid, I am I offered any, won't be available until at least June. And the Kingdom, if I get a bid, most likely won't use me until June.
My attorney is John H. Helmers, Jr., the assistant District Defender. I made an appointment to discuss my case for tomorrow; Mr. Helmers set aside 2:00 P.M, relunctanly. He would have rather review the charge, set up witnesses, etc,, over the telephone. (continued)




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