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2014-10-25 00:07:47 (UTC)

Dear Jay

Dear jay,
Low blood pressure. Low enough that you could go into a coma or die.
I'm going out of my mind right now!
You are not allowed to die. And i'm dead serious about that.
Your not going to die and leave your family, jade, your friends, me behind.
Its not okay.

Jade says your stable that your going to be ok, that it was the pain meds that caused tjis reaction...

Its ironic, that just before jade messaged me on your facebook i was thinking how weird itbwas that you hadn't said anything to me today yet and then my phone goes off mynfacebook alert sound and i smile and think "There's Jay"
But no it was jade which wasn't dissapointing either until i hear the news your in the hospital, 50/30 blood pressure.
Risk of coma and death.
My. heart. sunk.
And i was praying for you like crazy.

Jade says it was really close, maybe another 5 minutes and we would have lost you.
Don't you do that to us again! Oh my gosh Jay!.
(yes i know rationally you couldn't controll this)
But yeah i still feel the fear at the thought of losing you.

Jade says your fine. Your chatting up the nurse's (her words not mine :p)

Jay these things keep happening to you.
It seems like you get closer and closer to losing your life... And the thought scares the shit out of me, and makes me sick.
For many reasons.
I'd lose an Amazing friend.
And another reason is if you died... I don't know about your relationship with God.
I don't know that if you died you would go to heaven and that scared me.
Because i know the truth about God, heaven, Hell, life, death, and i don't know if i could live with myself if i didn't tell you, if i wasn't living my life in a way that pointed you twords God. We've talked about, God we've talked about Christianity, my faith a few times but i've never pushed it on you, because i understand if you are/were angry at God, you have plenty of reasons to be, i get that because i do to.
But at the End of the day, and at the end of my life.
I want to be sure that i'm with God... And i want to know that all of my family and friends are right with God too.

So here it is in the simplest of terms:

God loves you, more than anything in the world, more than anyone ever has or could.
Think of the person you love most in your entire life...
And God loves you more than that, more than either of us can comprehend.

And because he loves you so much. He Gave his only Son to Die on a cross for you, for your sins.

"For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotton son that who ever believes in Him will not perish but have ever lasting life" John 3:16

Jay i could sugar coat this but with you i don't think i need to, i've never had to do that with you in the past i see no reason to now.

This is life and death. This is real, this is serious and imprtant.
When people die they aren't just gone, people go to heaven or they Go to hell.

In the bible it says that God doesn't want anyone to go to hell but he gives everyone a free will to choose.
The only way to go to heaven when you die is to believe in Jesus christ with your heart
Not just a i know god exists. But really believing it him, and accepting him into your heart.
Its believeing that God loves you, that he sacrificed his only son for you, even though you were/are a sinner, he still loves you, jesus still died for you and everyone and he wants you do believe in him, he's waiting for you.

Jay this may not make sense, you may have questions i'd be happy to answer.
I may have offended you, if so i'm genuinely sorry.

I love you like a brother so i can't not tell you the truth.
I'll talk to you soon.
I probably won't tell you about this till you feel better, but we should talk about it.

You scared me tomight. Try not to do that again okay?
Love you,

-Me.


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