Marlon Brazilian
Somewhere in Brazil
Suicidal, tired, rain!
No matter what happens, I always end up coming to this, I can't avoid feeling like this.
You guys may not know but I'm very bipolar, I mean, I think I am, I have never gone through some kind of medical exam that diagnosed me as bipolar... But due to what I feel like I've come to the conclusion that I man because sometimes I'm feeling super happy and ok and in 2 minutes all the happiness and excitment will be gone and I will be down and all that is left is suicidal thoughts. I have this thing for sooo long. Sometimes I even break down and cry. Why I never wrote about that? - Because, like I said, it's something that comes and goes quickly and I'm kind of ashamed for feeling like that, I have NEVER told anyone about that. I don't want to play the miserable boy roll. I dont want people to think I want attention (because that's what people frist assume when they hear someone clame what I would claime).
It's desvastating! It sucks! Tonight I felt like that for hours... By the way, I didn't have school tonight so all I did was surf the web (I should have made some homework).
It rained a lot today which was nice!
My day at work sucked today! It was so tiring and I just wasnt in the mood for it. Paulo (my workmate) is considering quitting!
I talked to Stefany on whatspp and she told me his parents' divorce story and she seems to have gone through a lot. I like her, really.
Lucas (my classmate) invited me to hang out and drink something and due to the rain we couldn't hang out but I think we're doing so tomorrow!!!! I need to hang out, I need to drink! That will help me!
I'm tired, it's almost 1 am. I'm feeling better now. I'll survive one more night, one more day!
Well, that's all I guess. See you.
Marlon, Somewhere Rainy in Brazil
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