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2014-09-07 03:23:54 (UTC)

i can get used to being lonely.. i find it quite peacefull

I am stronger than you think . i just tend not to show it becuase ill feel mean. but sometimes it will feel great. having power over myself. yeah people can saw i turned in to a bitch lately. but honestly, weren't they a bitch first to me to make me that way? hmm maybe, or maybe they spoke their mind with out thinking it hurt me. yeah maybe.I'm kinda getting over the "like you" thing. and well so what if im the next 40 year old virgin who never had her kiss or had a relationship with a guy????

Maybe im just needing.. im not wanting love.. im needing it. yeah thought of this on my way back from the football game last night.(we lost by the way) like always...I notice im focusing on more important stuff than others.. i rather focus where im gonna be or do 5 years from now.

I have no time for guys. besides what would i give back?? Im one akward person. Yeah i know some girls in my team think im a quite girl or a mean girl according to my face. which yeah, i looked in to my reflection trying to make everyone laugh in the restroom while changing out of our uniforms, i catched myself at my reflection. i don't look like a person with happy thoughts, not me. with them, they have julews for that. maybe i should be acting more responsible. get my grades up, stop thinking about boys. i notice the less you care about guys, the more time you get to live the good singler life yeah can get lonely at times, but i have single friends, and they make me happy and sometimes less lonely.
But that's high school.
no one stays with you forever




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