Marlon Brazilian

Somewhere in Brazil
2014-08-03 23:41:47 (UTC)

I've been fucking tired.

I havent written in here for days, well my routine has been so freaking tiring! I wake up, go to work and take a ride with one o my workmates back home and take a shower and eat quickly cause I need to take the bus to go to school (I have to do all that in 30 minutes)... I am enjoying the course I'm taking, really, it's very interesting, I hope I can work with that soon cause my current job has been driving me crazy lately...

I've also been very depressed sometimes, I dont understand why exactly but I think it's mostly because I miss my family in south Brazil and friends and everything related to that place... Plus, I need someone, I feel like I need someone to hold my hand, look in my eyes and say something like ''everything's gonna be ok in the end Marlon'', I know that sounds depressing and it really is supposed to sound like that.
On the other hand I've been feeling very bipolar which sucks, cause I'm feeling super sad and down and 3 minutes later I'm very excited and happy about my life and everything, I feel like Im going crazy sometimes. The only thing I keep in mind is that everything in life passes, nothing lasts forever and I just have to work and study hard for like 1 year and then I can work with I really like, that comforts me a lot!
I also feel so damn alone sometimes... I dont really want to play the lonely roll but that's the truth, thats what I've been feeling like...
Life is hard, why does it have to be like this?

Well, I'm not even writting what I did today ot during the past days cause I am not in the mood to write and I'm also tired and need to wake up early tomorrow so yeah here I go...

I hope that in like 2 years I can read these lines and realize that everything changed.


Marlon, Somewhere depressed in Brazil.




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