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My heart in a knot
2014-07-20 19:09:50 (UTC)

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Well I feel a tiny bit better today then I have in the last few days although I still haven't been able to get any sleep, and it's a different type of insomnia then what I'm use to, I usually can force myself to drift off until I sleep but the last few nights I've been staying away well into 3am.

Today at work I had the chance to talk to that girl I mentioned, the one who's life looked so much better than mines. Well the saying never judge a book by it's cover applies here. She is originally from Michigan, a place I know nothing about, she's been here for only 5 years so I can tell she will be moving around once she's done with college because the way she was sounding while telling me about if she liked it here it didn't seem like she was very pleased with the pace of how things are here, she actually was saying there is not a city atmosphere here, but I feel it is.


I wish I could of spoken to her more but it was very busy and we had a lot of work to do. I most likely won't see her again because she goes back to college in a different city soon plus it was just a chance of fate that we were working together today. Talking to her was a great distraction from my problems, the more I stress and worry about things the more I feel I need distractions in my life so I can "ignore" all of my problems... I guess a part of me just wants to feel normal. I surprised myself by having a very nice conversation with her, although it was short.


This coming week will be a slight distraction from my problems because I have a lot of work to get done for my classes, plus I'm going to take some time during the day to get a workout so that I can start to reduce all the stress I feel.


I have things on my mind that I don't want to write because I know I'm just going to regret it later... so I'm going to go before I end up writing it and embarrassing myself.




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