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2014-07-16 08:09:38 (UTC)

how do you love your self first?

Anna..happy birthday. It's 3 in the mornig.. And I can't sleep. I'm driving now. It's easy.. Why was I so scared to drive? Haha

I liked andres "Tbh" on Facebook just to see why would be his respond.. Something stupid like." Had you in ms.c class,your cool." Something lame since I'm not really in to him. I just want to know what he'll say or do.. Nothing big I know. He doesn't like me. Rejection hurts. But hey everyone goes through with it. Right? Haha

Well next year. Is just another year. I need to focus moe on my grades.
I take things for granted sometimes.
But. Yeah. I'll try to fix that.
I over think stuff that nobody understands. I'll fix that too.

I take people's opinion about me. Way to seriously . Like I'm 16 what do you want from me.???
We are in high school I won't even talk to you after this.

Anyways. Would I be the same after high school? Would I find a career? Would I still be stuck in this small town? Would I ever get laid?? Lol I'm to young to be thinking this. But to be honest. Time goes by really fast. So fast you'll want to rewind back a little. But god made you do the choice to learn from them. To fix what's next in your future, right?

Maybe me and gabby won't talk after I leave? Would I still talk to Manny? Anna,Ashley, lupe??

Would I move far? Would I be the first to find a cute for. Cancer?!! Really fucked up questions are running my mind. Well I'm just here waiting for the stupid TBH thing from andres . Just to know what he thinks about me. It's something small I know it'll be small. Really small. Maybe a sentence maybe he was embarrass of me at school./.- maybe . Emanuel was right that andres was just saying he was a "player" so I wouldn't like him..!??? If it was than.. That's just wierd. I'm not even going to know the guy after high school. I'd probably won't remember him.??? Haha anyways. I really wanted him as a friend. Since he was funny, wierd.. But you know what they say.
"You can't always get what you want" and that's why god made me catch feeling for him so we wouldn't be friends. Lol naahhh see I over think stuff.

Tbh.. I'm scared of dating. I'm scared of getting my heart broken. I'm scared that I won't love the person I'm with enough. I'm scared I won't be good enough for that person.

First thing first is to "love myself" .. But...
How do I love myself???

Yours truly
TheNerdyOne




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