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2014-05-22 05:06:42 (UTC)

Thursday am

i got the biggest part of my lines done yesterday.
i started them at 9.30,and worked solidly through till 11.30.Then i got some more done in my lunch hour...another half hours worth...then another 2 hours after the second shift.The rest were finished this morning and took another 1.5 hours.
So 6 hours altogether to do 500 lines,on paper.i took pics of them and sent them via email to Master as i completed them.In case anyone was wondering,it took 15 whole sides of A4 lined paper to do them.
my arm,wrist,thumb and head ache :(
i didn't eat all day yesterday because i wanted to get them done as soon as i could.
Then after i'd done my ones last night and sent them,Master told me to eat and sleep properly.So i stuck a ready meal in the oven,ate it,and went to bed around 8.45pm :(
i had a wierd dream,then kept waking up through the night,finally getting up at 4.20am,and straight to work on the rest of the lines.Finished them by 5.50am
i was starved of all contact from my Master,except a few brief confirmations of receiving the lines,and the one last night telling me to eat and sleep :(
i've had no contact with pi and chatte either.
Not that i wanted to talk really...i was so upset yesterday.
Had an email from dez again this morning...horny little minx!Lol

i'm not sure how i'm feeling today.Relieved that the lines are complete,worried about talking to pi again,sad that my Master isn't proud of me anymore :(
When i think about it,i could cry,especially after reading my sister's diary,and seeing what Master and her were doing while i was feeling so low and lonely :(
No-one to blame but myself though.i don't know how i can talk to pi again,and how to drag myself back up from this :(
my Master seems so far away from me now :(

6.58am...email from Master confirming receipt of my lines.He's online early!
He says i'm forgiven...ok,just have to forgive myself now then :(
Then another email saying i have permission to talk to pi and chatte again.i immediately email chatte to wish her Happy Birthday,i was sure she said it was today,the day before the kids broke up,cos she asked me when i finished work.When i said this Friday,she said "Ah,the day after my birthday".So i said "Happy birthday for Thursday then,you got your present early"...meaning my Master.
Even Master thought it was today,but He's emailed me since saying its NEXT week!???

As for pi...i daren't talk to him yet,although i miss him like crazy :(((


ain.




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