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My heart in a knot
2014-05-19 21:15:54 (UTC)

He what

So nothing much has been going on with me lately. Today is my sisters birthday and she turned 30, I went to the store today and got her a 8 inch wok (which is a cooking pan) and some olive oil. She and I are still not on the best speaking terms and our relationship is still rocky but I didn't want to ignore her 30th birthday, I've just had to learn to mature and put my pride aside. She seemed excited about it and I know it's something she wanted, her friend Hosan brought her a cake so that was very nice of him, I really hope they get married.


I also got "lucky" today at the store I found a new cell phone with the company I use, it was originally $50, but I got it for $15 but it wasn't until I got home that I realized why it was $15, but still it has a benefit. I have a really cheap phone plan and I only put 60 minutes for $20 every 90 days (3 months) on my phone. That is all I can really afford, but with this phone they triple the minutes so I am now getting 180 minutes for $20, that's a good deal and the phone works out for being cheap and effective for when I apply to jobs so I can get the call and return it, it also works for emergencies when I don't have wifi to make voip calls.


Speaking of money issues I put in a application today at the store where I bought my sisters gift.

I guess I should write about what the title of this entry is about now. Well it's about my relationship with sean (if you can even call it that) he has been very eager to talk to me and hang out, but I've been very reluctant, especially after the other day when he wanted to know if I wanted to attend his "sex party" (yes public sex) I couldn't even believe he asked me something like that, I was honestly offended. I have had to try to learn not to judge a person based off one trait they have but ever since I've met him I've known him to be "hypersexual" I guess that might be normal for his age but the sex party was way too much for me to even think about.


Ever since he asked that I've been avoiding him, he hasn't moved yet but I guess eventually he will, but I know it won't be the last of him. I haven't been sure if he legitimately wants to be my friend or has something else in mind. It has really confused me.

I've been feeling more upbeat ever since the party for my grandfather, I think making up for lost sleep and cleaning the house has helped me clear my mind, I also think eating heavier has helped. I weigh 115-119 lbs now, I've really been gaining weight rapidly and I haven't even done much. However I don't think I'll ever get over 130 mostly because I think that would be too much weight for my tiny feet to support, I truly believe there has to be some type of signal that goes from my feet to my brain telling it to not gain so much weight. I also can't remember if I mentioned the new shoes I got on clearance as well. They were originally $25 and I got them for $7.54 they were on clearance, running shoes, just my size too. I needed a new pair because my old ones had worn down (literally with holes) I knew I wasn't going to pay over $10 for shoes so I'm glad I found them on clearance when I did.


So I had a lucky last few weeks at the store:

New cell phone was $50, clearance for $ 15
New shoes was $25, clearance for $7
New shirt was $12, clearance for $4
New jeans was $22, clearance for $6


I purchased a few other things as well, I wasn't expecting to even spend this much, I had hoped the last few weeks I'd spend all my time at home to avoid high gas prices and over spending, but I think this nice weather is to blame for me going out and buying stuff. It will be ok though, hopefully in due time I'll find a second job so that I can balance out with all the extra stuff I bought.


Well, it's the right time for sleep so I'm going to head that way. By the way I'm not leaving this house for the next 3 days, I hope to find a way to entertain myself.




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