rainy

My heart in a knot
2014-04-26 22:40:40 (UTC)

entrepreneur

So I was looking at a video today of some up and coming "young adults" who are about 5-7 years younger then me and I was surprised and how they were mature enough to go out and seek change for their lives.


For a while now I've been looking at my current work and career situation, I have no entrepreneur spirit, no drive, no motivation.. I've been stuck at the same place ever since I got my first job at age 18. I'm brining this up not only because I'm getting older and I'm seeing younger people who are a lot more motivated then me succeed, but also because they cut my hours back at work drastically, it's so unpredictable and it really is hurting my pockets. I can only imagine if I actually had children to feed and had to pay full price rent.

I still plan on looking into other opportunities, I've been saying this for a while now but classes are nearly over, I think next week is the last week, if not the week after that is the last one for sure. I'm so excited. I also found out that my summer classes don't start until July so I have 2 months where I can get things done. I just need to find the motivation.


Today at work I was completely drained, I didn't have any energy and no real explanation as to why I didn't.


I have been wanting to come and write about a concept that I recently came across "Ego-dystonic" and "Ego-syntonic" I want to focus on egodystonic.. I just haven't gotten around to it because I had still be talking to witness girl, I failed to mention this but our conversations have lasted 3 months now. There really is no telling when we will drift apart but I assume it will be eventually.. I have more to write on that situation as well..


For now I'm going to get some rest, I need to see if I can balance out this lack of energy problem I seem to have.




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