rainy

My heart in a knot
2014-03-19 20:32:41 (UTC)

regress

So today was a hard day for me. We had a test in my math class and I don't think I did too well on it, some of the material just wasn't very clear nor do I think the teacher has done a good job explaining things clearly.


After the test I came home and cut open a corn dog and when I went to put the top back on the scissors a piece flew off and landed some place strange because I was never able to find it. I was thinking to myself what are the chances that my little plastic piece would land some place where I could never get to it. I think it landed in a small part of the oven which scares me since I hope it's not a fire hazard. The thing is that the chances would be so small for it to land there out of all the other possible places it could of landed..


Anyway, that really upset me and I spent like an hour looking for it, hoping it didn't fall some place in the oven but I think it did, but I don't think a fire will start because of it. Now I'll just have to make due without that piece.

My head has been hurting a lot lately and I'm wondering if it's because I haven't been getting enough sleep or just sleeping late. It's 9:30pm now and I hope to try and get some sleep early tonight.


Those are not the only things bothering me though, tomorrow is the 20th which is the first day of spring yet it is so cold outside, cold enough that I have to wear a large jacket and keep the heater on in the house. I had hoped by this time we would have a consistent temperature of at least around 60-65, that way we could turn the central heating system off and save. Speaking of which my sister has yet to pay her part of the bill for that and if I don't come write around the 28th or so then it's because our electricity is off. Maybe it's for the best, maybe it will teach my sister a lesson, she needs one.

I was supposed to be writing about positive things but sometimes it's very difficult when everything seems to be negative. I guess this is why I'm not successful. Speaking of success I'm at least working harder at getting a new job, I updated my resume and am starting to put it out in hopes of finding a new job or internship. I'm also looking for opportunities on campus so that I can have honors in something. I'm anticipating the future.

I wish I wasn't so neurotic, I never realized before how much I am until I started to realize how much I complain and other people mentioning it to me as well. I need to hang around more people and get to know them.. I think that will help me see myself better and learn better social skills.

Well, I'm going to try and get some sleep, hopefully it will help.




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