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2014-03-11 02:50:37 (UTC)

I guess it's time to smile, but these stitches are loose.

I kind of want to write about my weekend, about the things I did and the people I saw. After sitting here for awhile, I guess I've realised that I have nothing to write about, except that I'm not in a good place.

I've been spending my weekends shut off from the world, shut off and alone. I get so far through a Saturday that I can't manage and end up getting stoned. I'm slowly slipping back into what I was 4 years ago, when I started writing here.

I guess that's because I've let another one slip through my fingers and I'm back right where I started. Only I guess it's worse this time because I'm older, at least it feels worse.

I've not felt this lost in awhile, not like this. I still wish that you'd get in touch and pull me back in. My brother leaves in less than 2 months. I'll break down when he goes, I'll finally have nothing now that you're gone.

It's possible I've been in love with you all of this time.

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