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2014-02-25 12:04:16 (UTC)

All I have is you.

No longer will I have you to turn to, to look forward to seeing. You're now longer part of my life, it's time to start healing.

I told you not to reply, get in touch or speak to me anymore. Things were said that justify your departure in my life.

8 people at work will be moving from nights to days next week, Friday is their last shift. I was meant to be one of the guys moving to days to replace some of the day shift numbers after multiple people left.

Fortunately, I know a few people higher up who put in a word for me so I'll be staying on nights. This is what I wanted, I mean if you were talking to me then I may have moved to days so we could have spent more time together. I guess we won't be spending any time together now.

The problems I now see about this change is that staying on nights is kind of a good thing and also a bit of a shitter.

Eventually I'll be moving to days once the night shift is over, so I guess that's something to look forward to. I've worked nights for as long as I remember, probably close to 10 years. Me moving onto days is this massive thing that I don't really want to do, I mean I can't imagine not being awake at 4am and waking up at 6am, the thought scares me.

I'm kind of wishing I said nothing and moved to days, not to mention of the 8 people who are moving to days, I'm really close to 6 of them. Starting next week I'll be losing 6 really good friends. It makes me want to ask if I can swap with someone and move to days myself.

On the other hand, I can take this opportunity and learn more, teach more and better my work life. We'll be getting about 20 new temps, half of them started yesterday. Now is the time to improve my quality of life, improve the quality of my work and be better.

I need to take the recent events in my life and become a better person, less egotistical or big headed, in your words.

Distant, so far, destiny is selecting me, I can't be strong, life is disconnecting me. Now loneliness infecting me, gone are the days, you were there protecting me.

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